At Wits' End

So I gave up. I gave up to every sanity I have to ignore him. I can't deny the fact that I felt contentedly overjoyed when I started talking and smiling to him. That emotional outburst you can't easily contain every time you see him lurking around with his eyes spying on you. His hesitation, when you know how he attempts to get near you.

Or maybe I am just overly thinking or most likely hallucinating. I can be wrong. I can be right, but I don't give a damn care anymore as long as he makes me happy.

Inception

It is day I'm-Not-Sure where I decided to lie low from seeing, meeting or talking to him. And like my day, I don't know if I am doing a good job on it because it does feel terrible inside. I noticed that he has been cold with me after noticing what I have been doing, and honestly I feel miserable. Few times I am guilty I have been spying on him at work, and few times I've caught him doing so as well. I probably 'em caught in this overthinking, and I blame myself always that my delusion has gone escalated. I hope one day, I have this courage to tell him how I feel. 

Probably one day, I hope. 

Blame Game

We blame others because they are convenient,
not because the truth is convincing enough to be blamed. 

It is just sad to hear people blaming others. But blaming others because you are ignoring the fact that the truth and reality is really someone to be blamed is called blindsiding. Not because it is convenient to blame others make the mistake convenient and realistic. Sometimes, it only make things look more uglier than it should be. 

Damn Thoughts

So, umm... I want you.

My exact thoughts after falling for you. I am not sure when, I am not sure how. Damn I am not even sure why. The only thing I can remember, is me waking up with the thoughts of you.

I get nervous when I know you will be around. I get shivers and chills when we are doing our little chat. I can't even think clearly when you are looking at me. I get anxious, I get insecure. Damn I feel like I am under a spell when you are around.

But God knows this isn't real. I know this is a facet of who you are. misinterpreted by my dirty mind. You are just so perfect. The perfection I always want to be mine. I want to conquer it, but God knows this is not for me to take.

Silently, I maybe have started to lovin' you. And it chimes in my mind. It never stop. And it never will.

Damn, I so want you. 

A Way Back

So it has been almost a decade before I finally had the chance to retrieve my blog. Luck has been kind enough to give me a chance to reclaim what I thought I had lost. So after 8 years of not sharing any post, here I am back again posting and ranting about anything back again. And it is good to be back, finally.

P.S.: Just so I realized my blog needs cleaning. ughh

Home Sweet Home

Mid pleasures and palaces though we may roam,

Be it ever so humble, there's no place like home.

John Howard Payne (1791 - 1852)

Its been almost a year since I was able to go back to my own place. Because I am so ambitious I decided to move away and try to look for opportunity which I luckily got. I just realized that its not worth it. Replacing your own comfort zone for cash and vanity. Maybe it does worth something, or maybe I did learn a lesson. But the good thing now is I am back home and as much as I could, I will try not to leave my home again.

I had a lot of arguments if my decision was right. But there's no place like home for me, so I think my decision was right after all.

Diet Plan for Ultimate Weight Loss

Being thin is a one of the most tedious job for some people especially those who are prone to getting fat easily. I am just so sad that I am one of those and currently I am ultimately planning to lose weight or just at least grow an abs. I know that it might sound possible but trust me its hard to do.

I remember doing my dietary plan before which is water therapy. Well this kind of dieting plan is done by drinking lots of water in majority of your meals and snacks. It sounds easy but trust me, it doesn’t . Effect is quite good and the result is even better. But I was warned that this kind of diet has there own complications. After which I knew about it, I stopped doing it and apparently it didn’t went good for my body since I started getting fat again.

Now I am a bit alarmed with my body weight and the alarming size that it contributes and here are some of the plans that I am thinking of I heard that having a low carb diet is somewhat effective. I just don’t know if it would be applicable for me since losing carbohydrate can have an effect to the body’s metabolism. We all know that Carbohydrate is one of the most essential vitamins that are needed in our body to sustain energy.

I am still undecided today, but It’s a good thing that seeing a website that featured this common issue in Disastercover.com is very informative. Hope they can add more for better options for everybody.

Ungrateful Son

This are the times when some of us feel ungrateful for our Mom for some reasons. Admittedly, I also share the same dose of that medicine and in fact I kinda hate her for a reason. But hating won't do any good, hopefully this opens the heart of anybody. 

 

C'est La vie - B*witched

I so miss this song. Brings a lot of memories.

Love the Way you Lie - Eminem feat. Rihanna

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Love the Way you Lie

Eminem feat. Rihanna

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is

I can only tell you what it feels like

And right now there's a steel knife

In my windpipe

I can't breathe

But I still fight

While I can fight

As long as the wrong feels right

It's like I'm in flight

High of a love

Drunk from the hate

It's like I'm huffing paint

And I love it the more that I suffer

I sufficate

And right before im about to drown

She resuscitates me

She fucking hates me

And I love it

Wait

Where you going

I'm leaving you

No you ain't

Come back

We're running right back

Here we go again

It's so insane

Cause when it's going good

It's going great

I'm Superman

With the wind in his bag

She's Lois Lane

But when it's bad

It's awful

I feel so ashamed

I snap

Who's that dude

I don't even know his name

I laid hands on her

I'll never stoop so low again

I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much

You can barely breathe

When you're with them

You meet

And neither one of you

Even know what hit 'em

Got that warm fuzzy feeling

Yeah them chills

Used to get 'em

Now you're getting fucking sick

Of looking at 'em

You swore you've never hit 'em

Never do nothing to hurt 'em

Now you're in each other's face

Spewing venom

And these words

When you spit 'em

You push

Pull each other's hair

Scratch, claw, bit 'em

Throw 'em down

Pin 'em

So lost in the moments

When you're in 'em

It's the rage that took over

It controls you both

So they say it's best

To go your separate ways

Guess that they don't know ya

Cause today

That was yesterday

Yesterday is over

It's a different day

Sound like broken records

Playin' over

But you promised her

Next time you'll show restraint

You don't get another chance

Life is no Nintendo game

But you lied again

Now you get to watch her leave

Out the window

Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things

Did things

That we didn't mean

And we fall back

Into the same patterns

Same routine

But your temper's just as bad

As mine is

You're the same as me

But when it comes to love

You're just as blinded

Baby please come back

It wasn't you

Baby it was me

Maybe our relationship

Isn't as crazy as it seems

Maybe that's what happens

When a tornado meets a volcano

All I know is

I love you too much

To walk away though

Come inside

Pick up your bags off the sidewalk

Don't you hear sincerity

In my voice when I talk

Told you this is my fault

Look me in the eyeball

Next time I'm pissed

I'll aim my fist

At the dry wall

Next time

There will be no next time

I apologize

Even though I know it's lies

I'm tired of the games

I just want her back

I know I'm a liar

If she ever tries to fucking leave again

I'mma tie her to the bed

And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

I love the way you lie

I love the way you lie

ABDC's My Favorite Routines

I am so gaga with this group. And I so like Josh Ulep.

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