Life to Move on

What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now. - Anonymous

A person’s past is an overall transformer of one person, personification and character. This greatly influences one person thinking and outlook in life. A person is like a river that shines clearly in the surface but deep within is enveloped with unseen past and aspiration. These things are usually comprised of thing that could be hard to forget, blissful or regretful.

Hath then I realize that past vindicated life should not jeopardize people around you. You can be as strict you are since your parents were strict before but make sure you can justify it at a cause. You can be as bitter because of your life’s unfortunate events before, but do not be superior that you are already causing unnerving doubt to everybody’s life around you.

They don’t care who you are before, what they care is who you are today. People won’t misjudge your action if you won’t let your bitter past interfere of who you are today. Remember, life is a choice but don’t forget that you can’t control everything that will happen. What you can do is accept it with wide arms open and make use of your experience before for the better.

My Regrets

I have a lot of thoughts racing through my mind today. I don't know. It seems like the memories of my past haunts me back under no circumstances. Its showing me a lot of regrests of my past. Bad things that could not be undone but can only show remorse of what had happened. Things that maybe time can never find to close. 

at home.. 

I realized that if I had learn to fought back when I was kid. I was never be bullied. With the brains and fighting spirit that I have today, I don't think I am a person who could easily be underestimated. I just realized that today when I started blaming everybody in home, I should be blaming myself. I know they would say that because I am a kid or dont have conscience yet of what was happening but who cares. Whatever happened to me now is because of my fault and ignorance nor innocence saved me from it. 

at family..

I could have save my relationship with my dad. Until now, I wish I did. Seriously, when I was a kid I use to entertain him while he drunks himself to liquor and he was correcting my mistakes in the song. Those are things that I only could remember with him. Then I realize, those moments are something that I should treasure. Something that I shared with him all through my life for the past 20+ years, cause after it was was pride and coldness replaced.

our family business..

Then I realize that my dad's bread and butter has already come to an end. Sigh. I remember the days when my dad would treat us somewhere and how my dad lavish expense. I guess that's one trait I got from my dad. 

my self..

I just came to think that what I am right now is somewhat an achievement. Of course everybody thinks so. With all the things I had in my life today, I could have achieved something more and something better than what I have right now. Honestly, I am hiding in a shell full of lies and immorality. I use to say I hate people misconducts which could had been prevented. Then I realized I should also be hating myself first before hating others. Sigh

Life Factor: Humiliation, Initiation and Appreciation

Humiliation

Humiliation is literally the act of being made humble, or reduced in standing or prestige. Humiliation is not in general a pleasant experience, as it reduces the ego. The term has much in common with the emotion of shame.

Initiation

Initiation is a rite of passage ceremony marking entrance or acceptance into a group or society. It could also be a formal admission to adulthood in a community or one of its formal components. In an extended sense it can also signify a transformation in which the initiate is 'reborn' into a new role.

Appreciation

Recognition of the quality, value, significance, or magnitude of people and things.

Sometimes in life, people have to live by rules. Honestly, its not easy living. And to be known, you have to climb through a ladder, move your way up by a magic carpet or bury yourself and be known. Thats the way life goes. We have to admit, life has its own beauty and suffering.

Life and Nuisance

Of course there is no formula for success except perhaps an unconditional acceptance of life and what it brings. - Arthur Rubinstein.

This is certainly true and I could attest to this. I remember those days when I hear people crying and ranting out why life is unfair and why they get all the sufferings and burden. I would merely laugh at them because I know life only gives what it gets. When they were all crying out loud of their sufferings, here I was figuring how to deal with it. It saved me all the energy that I need to live my life instead of ranting out. I am pretty sure I won't get anything from impeccably whining.

Maybe that explains my apathetic emotion when I see people having none or less food. I am sensitive but due to struggling I become insensitive. But it doesn’t prohibit me from showing emotion. For me emotion should be used in a fluctuant manner. I believe emotion is powerful enough to damage or help people so it should be use wisely.

I don't believe in reasons that life is this because of that. If you know how to worked it out, I believe tables could be turned around. Nobody could stay on the top forever nor success would last long. Everything is expensable but the value of what we had achieved is sentimental.

Live life and understand life like love; know what it brings and accept it, in the end you'll understand how happiness work. That’s my side for such quote. How bout yours?

My New Home

I almost cried thinking I screwed up everything in hosting this website to another webhosting company. But I finally made it and I am so happy. Thanks for the author's of the links who helped me go through with this burden:

• Bloggergeeze - for the realization of what I had miss
• Bloggerbuster - for the initial guide
• Radhna Krishna Reddy - for the nameservers and the 15 easy steps which I followed
• Godaddy - of course for the hosting services and some useful tips as well
• Compender - for the picture support and some assistance as well
• And of course, to my ever friend Chenee who had been patient enough to be my outlet for my woes and trouble. I know she knew that I wasn't listening as well to what she was saying. Ha ha.

Welcome to my new home!!

A Certain Mask

In the modern day, emotions can be one way of assessing one person’s personality. People believe that if they would be able to induce their emotion, they will adapt the certain personality of different people. This people who are known to wear mask everywhere sometimes gives out a positive outview to a particular person. On the other hand, it leads that person to forget and neglect the real them. As with the cliche, things can only be forgotten if there is an intention. I’ll tell you a story about a person who decided to mask the real him.

It started when he learned that indepence is not a matter of choice or destiny but instead its a matter of decision and pursuance. It was the cry of wanting to run away led him to do so. Which expectedly led him to live a happy go lucky life. A life which he thought he could be as free as the birds are. But yes he was able to do so, but not for long.

The happiness perished and was replaced with the ugly truth of life. I could remember the cold night when he was walking a long wide road in search of comfort and care. A trike and interaction, trying to mix with those eyes who are ravishly judging him. He was wantingly tried to be pushed away, but he fought back. Yes he was able to socially interact with them but for a price of shame, impervous judgement and solid mistreatment.

I could remember the social threat that people are giving him, because for them he made a wrong choice. He chose the option that will lead him to perish his character. An option that will never be successful, so as the so called wise man had said. They never knew, till one day.

I came across with this person again. I was amazed with the sensible talkings that he shared. The life that he was saying that he lost, came back. Not whole, but eventually it would be.

I came across this person again. This time it he’s way too different. I was amazed with the all the things that he possess. You can see, those weary and tired face that he has depicts a story of his journey. I could certainly say, that was the person I met years ago. With his posture he abruptly shows a different person, but his eyes I can see the trapped him. Jailed and covered with a mask.

Who can blame him with that? No one. He used it as a shield and sword. To grow, learn and be somewhat successful. But is it right? I think not. I can see and feel that when he talks something about himself, its never been dug dip. He’s defensive personality tries to cover it back again, but I know the real him wanted to be free. He traded himself to something he don’t want to be. To live and to grow. Its benefit in exchange of what he is.

Faces of a Liar

Lies has been a part of a human life. Checking back on history, Adam was also the first person who lied and theoritically because of that, was thrown out from the Garden of Eden. This has passed through all the generations and somewhat spread through to everybody. Everybody has their own reasons for being a liar. Some good, some bad and some are even saying it not to hurt anybody. But is it a good thing? Is it justifiable? Is it reasonable? Or is it because everybody are afraid to tell the truth and the fact that lies on it. Sooner or later liars get stomped on because the truth will out whether it is tomorrow or next year or the next decade. Each lie leaves a trail. And the most unfortunate thing of all is that lies tend to have infinite lives!

Liars have to lead a difficult, if not impossible, life. They merely live in a fantasy. They hide their sins and their transgressions in a cloud and web of lies. They have to remember each and every detail about their lies, to whom they told them and why they told them. They spend their lives looking over their shoulders to see if any of the lies are catching up with them. They are always on the run; trying to outrun their lies! A liar leads a most miserable and horrible life.

Reasons why they are lying? Well it could be because (1) a liar doesn't like himself/herself as a person, (2) they consider their accomplishments inadequate, (3) they cannot stomach or accept the truth about whatever (4) they are afraid of the truth and (5) they cannot stomach the consequences of the truth. I could go on but you get the point. I read on to this article made by Pierre A. Rinfret and found some profiling of the liars which might help us categorized some of the people we know or had jumped in to us with a lie.

Perpetual Liar

This are the most difficult liar that you will encounter. This liar is one of those people who had great brain, and basing on an IQ tests are incredibly Genius. These people lies about anything. Important or unimportant, basically everything. Its like they had used to it and had lived with it. You could not believe anything at all of what he said. If he said that he called you X times in a day (after you had not talked to him in months) you knew he never made a single call at all.

Dangerous Liar

Dangerous liar (they are, of course, all dangerous) is the one that lies only about major or important facts. This is the kind of person that lies about his education, his studies, his degrees, his background, his family, his prior jobs, his war (or military) experiences, facts of all kinds, if he is in an argument and whatever suits him at the moment.

Political Liar

The political liar is legend. Political liars do not care one iota, one bit, one scintilla about the truth or the actual facts. They argue strictly on the basis of their emotions and their concept of what is "right" and what is "justice." We have all met them. They are the worst kind and it is hopeless to argue or debate them because they "know" and they lie and make up facts to suit whatever argument. The worst are of course, the media who lie and cheat to the ultimate and they have zero conscience and less responsibility. All they care about is winning no matter how they win.It is NOT how the game is played which to them is idealistic nonsense. All they care about is WINNING, no matter how, including lying and cheating to the extreme. Lying and cheating are pretty much the same thing, aren't they?

Social Engineering Liar

The social engineering liar is among the most dangerous because they want to change the social order according to their vision of what it should be. They lie about anything and everything and the worst of all is that they are self righteous about their lying. When they can't win a social argument with facts they resort to emotionalism (another form of lying). And when the emotionalism doesn't work they lie to high heaven in whatever mode suits them; just as long as they win their argument! My entire experience with these kind of self-righteous, guilt prone individuals is that they lie and lie some more.They know they are lying but they don't care!

Community Liar

The most incredible of all is the Community Liar. This is where a mass of people agree silently and without any overt or noticeable agreement that they are going to lie en masse! This also comes under the title of "lying to oneself".

Living and Working

Lately, I was so busy with everything happening to me. I have been missing my favorite series or movie, have not updated my blog and even updating myself to music. I have been rolling myself round and round to know more with my work and getting the hang of it. I know it would sound burning on my end but thats how I usually master myself to be good with something which later on I would get tired with. I've been enjoying much here the business that my work has, the occupancy of myself on my work. I've been exposing myself much on this work that much that when I go home, the only thing I could do there is sleep. I'm thinking about having something to destress out so that is why I am moving to my colleauge's house and live there cause probably that would help. Either ways, I am enjoying my stay here though I know that description is just blunt. Oh well, everybody has to grow.

Me, Myself and I

Everything has its own ways of unveiling. Some heroic, some catastrophic or sometimes its even whimsical. You'll never know whats in it for you unless you tried going to one of those doors, opening it and realizing what it has done. Regrets can start building up, but if your gonna be positive enough, your going to see the other picture of the decision that you had made. Lately, everything that I went through has not been easy. Well it never did since I woke up from reality, but I think I am just starting to enjoy everything that I'm not. It's not with the spot light , nor the amazing stuffs that I could actually do. But its the thought that your able to reach everything you wanted to do, with no one telling or hindering you to do so. And by those things, you motivate everything around you, make enemies for those who envy you and being able to hit back anyone that you wanted to. I know freedom had been always been mine, but freedom I had experience lately was compelling and such a wonderful feeling. I know everything wont last, I'm writing this down to remind me of this day I realized that I am happy being alone, with nothing to think on. Just me, myself and I.