Jun 6, 2018

At Wits' End

So I gave up. I gave up to every sanity I have to ignore him. I can't deny the fact that I felt contentedly overjoyed when I started talking and smiling to him. That emotional outburst you can't easily contain every time you see him lurking around with his eyes spying on you. His hesitation, when you know how he attempts to get near you.

Or maybe I am just overly thinking or most likely hallucinating. I can be wrong. I can be right, but I don't give a damn care anymore as long as he makes me happy.

Jun 3, 2018


It is day I'm-Not-Sure where I decided to lie low from seeing, meeting or talking to him. And like my day, I don't know if I am doing a good job on it because it does feel terrible inside. I noticed that he has been cold with me after noticing what I have been doing, and honestly I feel miserable. Few times I am guilty I have been spying on him at work, and few times I've caught him doing so as well. I probably 'em caught in this overthinking, and I blame myself always that my delusion has gone escalated. I hope one day, I have this courage to tell him how I feel. 

Probably one day, I hope. 

May 30, 2018

Blame Game

We blame others because they are convenient,
not because the truth is convincing enough to be blamed. 

It is just sad to hear people blaming others. But blaming others because you are ignoring the fact that the truth and reality is really someone to be blamed is called blindsiding. Not because it is convenient to blame others make the mistake convenient and realistic. Sometimes, it only make things look more uglier than it should be. 

May 29, 2018

Damn Thoughts

So, umm... I want you.

My exact thoughts after falling for you. I am not sure when, I am not sure how. Damn I am not even sure why. The only thing I can remember, is me waking up with the thoughts of you.

I get nervous when I know you will be around. I get shivers and chills when we are doing our little chat. I can't even think clearly when you are looking at me. I get anxious, I get insecure. Damn I feel like I am under a spell when you are around.

But God knows this isn't real. I know this is a facet of who you are. misinterpreted by my dirty mind. You are just so perfect. The perfection I always want to be mine. I want to conquer it, but God knows this is not for me to take.

Silently, I maybe have started to lovin' you. And it chimes in my mind. It never stop. And it never will.

Damn, I so want you. 

May 28, 2018

A Way Back

So it has been almost a decade before I finally had the chance to retrieve my blog. Luck has been kind enough to give me a chance to reclaim what I thought I had lost. So after 8 years of not sharing any post, here I am back again posting and ranting about anything back again. And it is good to be back, finally.

P.S.: Just so I realized my blog needs cleaning. ughh

Sep 5, 2010

Home Sweet Home

Mid pleasures and palaces though we may roam,
Be it ever so humble, there's no place like home.
John Howard Payne (1791 - 1852)
Its been almost a year since I was able to go back to my own place. Because I am so ambitious I decided to move away and try to look for opportunity which I luckily got. I just realized that its not worth it. Replacing your own comfort zone for cash and vanity. Maybe it does worth something, or maybe I did learn a lesson. But the good thing now is I am back home and as much as I could, I will try not to leave my home again.

I had a lot of arguments if my decision was right. But there's no place like home for me, so I think my decision was right after all.

Aug 19, 2010

Diet Plan for Ultimate Weight Loss

Being thin is a one of the most tedious job for some people especially those who are prone to getting fat easily. I am just so sad that I am one of those and currently I am ultimately planning to lose weight or just at least grow an abs. I know that it might sound possible but trust me its hard to do.

I remember doing my dietary plan before which is water therapy. Well this kind of dieting plan is done by drinking lots of water in majority of your meals and snacks. It sounds easy but trust me, it doesn’t . Effect is quite good and the result is even better. But I was warned that this kind of diet has there own complications. After which I knew about it, I stopped doing it and apparently it didn’t went good for my body since I started getting fat again.

Now I am a bit alarmed with my body weight and the alarming size that it contributes and here are some of the plans that I am thinking of I heard that having a low carb diet is somewhat effective. I just don’t know if it would be applicable for me since losing carbohydrate can have an effect to the body’s metabolism. We all know that Carbohydrate is one of the most essential vitamins that are needed in our body to sustain energy.

I am still undecided today, but It’s a good thing that seeing a website that featured this common issue in Disastercover.com is very informative. Hope they can add more for better options for everybody.

Aug 17, 2010

Ungrateful Son

This are the times when some of us feel ungrateful for our Mom for some reasons. Admittedly, I also share the same dose of that medicine and in fact I kinda hate her for a reason. But hating won't do any good, hopefully this opens the heart of anybody. 


Aug 12, 2010

Love the Way you Lie - Eminem feat. Rihanna

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie (feat Rih .mp3

Found at bee mp3 search engine

Love the Way you Lie
Eminem feat. Rihanna

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down

Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Aug 11, 2010

ABDC's My Favorite Routines

I am so gaga with this group. And I so like Josh Ulep.

Hype 5-0 - Illusion Challenge

Blue Print Cru - Illusion Challenge

Poreotics - Illusion Challenge