Jun 28, 2010

My Proposed Furnitures for My Own Bedroom

In the recent article that I made, I talked about the houses that I like which are very impossible to happen. But nevertheless, I saw a lot of good rustic bedroom furniture collections that looks very amazing which I would like to show you.

Eye captivating and very simple to look at. No one ever thinks of putting a small little stairs-like wood before going up on your bed which can be used in different ways.

A bed like this should be always partnered with a table like this. This perfects the rustic theme on your bedroom which makes it looks good and pleasant on the eye.

And a set of this is very perfect for a small living room part in my own bedroom.

I am a sucker for jackets or coats to be always reused especially if you have just used it for just hours that is why I am going to purchase one of this if ever when I set my own design for my bed.

A little mini bar to sit with before going to sleep is very romantic at most often times.

And lastly, the only light I am going to put in my bedroom. My rule and hopefully someone would agree, never ever put any bright light in the room as this will always hinder relaxation especially for eyes.

Motorcycle Accident Case Tips

Sometimes it is the point where you know you can’t stop in time. Sometimes it is when you start tumbling. And sometimes you won’t know what happened, except you are on the ground and your bike is on its side. Whatever the case, you have been in an accident, and your health, wealth, and ability to ride again are in jeopardy if you don’t think clearly and act rationally. Same with the article that I created for Car accidents, here are some things to remember when you have experienced motorcycle accidents.
Think – never ever panic, always think after the accident. Shouting or panicking will never do your good? Always check you’re self if you are harmed or was there anybody hurt? Also try to check if there is a traffic around to keep you safe what could happen afterwards or check your car if maybe there is a gasoline leaking. That is why thinking is more importantly the first thing you do than shouting for help.
Injuries – check your self for any injuries or body parts that are bleeding. Never ever attempt to correct your body for any dislocation or fraction that would happen as this could infect the injured parts. Also never remove any glasses stuck through your skin as this will make the damage part severe.
Adrenaline – after the accident, rush of adrenaline is expected to happen which can only take 3 seconds. This will be running over your body which can be experienced with your whole body as well. This is normal as this is one of the body’s defense mechanism. Sign of this will be irrationality, cause your hands to shake and dexterity to rise up. People under this state usually feels irrational and judgment or focus are usually clouded. This also makes the people too much chatty and would usually create excuses which eventually could lead to fight or even can lead to more accidents. Remember that nobody intended to have an accident and anger won’t help the situation at all. Remember that anything you say or do can be used against you in motorcycle accident case so make sure you dont let anger get in the way.
Some things to Ponder: 
  • Bikes are very hard to detect during traffic so make sure you move your shoulder at least or stand it up.
  • Helmets are sometimes ineffective after accidents so make sure that you have your helmet check first and tested to ensure that at least, your helmet will be able to protect you.
  • Do not let anyone light a flare or you may set fire.
  • If your bike is still working after an accident, make sure you check all the vital parts of the bike such as brakes, tranny, tires and more. You don’t want to be on another accident again because one of them is not working.

Jun 25, 2010

Oxis International, Inc.

If your looking for anti-aging and anti-oxidant products or glutathione’s, search no more. Oxidative stress study and research development has already conquered the market which is now known as Oxis International Inc.

On their study, they quoted that:

Oxidative stress refers to the situations in which the body’s antioxidant and other defensive abilities to combat free radicals (a.k.a highly reactive species of oxygen and nitrogen) are overwhelmed and one’s normal healthy balance is either lost or severely compromised.
This study has pioneered the company with their penny stocks and free radical theory (theory of aging) which gave them a total understanding on how they can manage it. Over the years, the company has been known to be the première provider for the potent antioxidant, Ergothioneine and through their patented synthetic manufacturing process remains the only significant commercial source of pure l-ergothioneine worldwide.

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Wonderful Pair of Jeans

Owning and wearing jeans is now a big part of the society. Anywhere you go or who ever you look at down the street, a person wearing a pair of jeans will always be seen. The good thing is jeans now a day comes in a different style which gives this pant a positive outlook to be part of the fashion world. But what are the things that you have to consider aside from buying Discount Designer Jeans? Here are some tips that you might want to consider.

Size depends on the brand and the preference that you choose. Measuring your waist is the most ideal thing that you will do to see what suits for you. Make sure that whatever you choose, waistline part should not bee too tight as this will make you feel uncomfortable. Also make sure that you also determine the leg length because you need to choose jeans that are just above the leg length to make it appear with volume.

Style and when to wear it
Style is one factor that everybody are trying to determine. Whether it is Boot Cut Jeans For Women or loose pants for men it should always make you feel comfortable and suitable for daytime pursuits that you will be having. Remember that all styles look good but sometimes we have to make sure that we match it on whatever we are doing for us not too look awkward.

What to Partner With
Jeans as part of daily clothing for everybody is very great because it matches with almost everything. That is one principal reason why there was a sudden spike of increase of sales of jeans.

Cheap vs. Expensive Jeans Myth
Do not believe on whatever myth that you will with regards to the quality and reliability of jeans which can be determined by price. Even if your buying a Cheap Skinny Jeans for Women or a Designer Skinny Jeans for Women, it doesn’t matter. It should always go down with the brand and how you use the pair of jeans.

Ten Tips to Interior Designing

Designing a home is pretty tedious knowing that the word it isn’t easy to design especially if your not that good in designing. Whether your house needs a San Diego home improvement it is still not a guarantee of having a very beautiful interior design that will make people go WOW. Not just that, the word itself I think would demand a heap of money that only rich and famous people to know. Here are some tips that Interior designer wannabe can do without spending a lot and this tip is pretty good for apartment homes or houses that are small. Thanks to hubpage for this wonderful idea that everybody would love.

1.) De Clutter
If your house is small or if you’re living in a small apartment place, make sure that you make very good and wonderful storage ideas that are somewhat camouflaging with your furniture or house design. These are things like a bed with a drawer underneath or a chair that has small compartments below. This is good because it gives your place more room for other things to put on rather than putting them in display on different sides which sometimes looks messy and unorganized.

2.) Choose Appropriate Size Furniture
You should never ever and would never buy things that are too big or too small in your place. Always try to measure first before you buy something to make sure that whatever you buy would fit very well and would not eat up the spaces that should have been allocated for some places.

3.) Use Mirrors
If your fan of watching horror movies, you might not consider to put a mirror on your home because this where usually ghosts and monsters lurk in. But those are just movies and it’s too far from reality. Mirrors can actually visually double the size of a room and make one room totally lit up because of its property of reflecting light. Usage of a mirror doesn’t just end up in faces, you just got to discover it and try it as well to know what it can do in the world of interior designing.

4.) Lighting
Here are some four tips to remember on lighting.

a.) always remember to utilize the natural light you can
b.) if you think you have a low ceiling, light spots are your best friend. Spot lights can actually heighten the height on your room visually and will make your ceiling seem a little bit higher. Therefore your room will look seem larger.
c.) Light all four corners of the room. You can do this by putting a lamp on some part of the room or putting a wall mounted floor lights to draw the attention on the other angels of the room. This gives a visually expanded size of the room which make its bigger.
d.) If you have a low ceiling, always remember to emphasize all the verticals by using curtains, striper wall paper, up lighters or gloss paint on the ceiling to bounce light down.

5.) Colour
Make it a habit not to make your house look like a rainbow because of too much mixture of warm colors. Always consider that every color shades has its own enemy so make sure you don’t go away too much on the shade that you have just chosen for your room.

6.) Neutrals (Black, Grey, White, sometimes Brown and Beige)
This is also termed as “non colours”. This is a very good option especially for people who are not used to designing and not sure of what colour to choose. Good thing for using neutrals is they can just be easily layered, mixed and matched because no other neutral colour can dominate over another. But you have to remember the Big Rule for finding the right colour for walls, and that is TESTING. Any San Diego interior designers or local interior designers does that.

7.) Accent Colours
This can colours can be used as a complementary colours which gives a delightful mix when used in small quantities to lift or to give an uplifting attraction to a colour scheme. Accent colour will work well if you’re using a bright or vibrant colour. Remember that this doesn’t just with paints, this colors also goes with the furniture, vases, pillows or even flowers.

8.) Clashing Colours
This is for people who think that colour should be a splendid drama. But remember that using Clashing colours will only look good if mixed carefully with equal tonal strength. Just one thing to remember, one color that may look pale or weak will result to getting lost of the overall look.

9.) Use your Own Treasures
Remember that not all designs or memorabilia’s have to expensive. A simple old music box or an old jack on the box toy will actually make one living room full of story. So don’t be shy on putting your old stuffs as a design.

10.) Wall Art
A simple wall art can change the mood and individuality which you seek without dominating the whole room unlike furniture does. Aside from that, they can be just placed anywhere and very convenient to move around over time.

Hope that this would be able to helped you a lot when you want to do designing, remember that we can still learn more and a small tips from known friends can actually go a long way from your own perspective.

New Gardening Technology

Plants now a day has been become one of the ornamental designs that we can see in different parts of the houses for some people. Then I went around and randomly search Google using the keyword “Plants as Ornamental Design. Then when I was reading through the entire list, I bumped in to this pretty strange word that I never had known of. I know not all of you are familiar with this that is why I am sharing this one and you will be pretty amazed. Again I want to thanks our one and best friend, Wikipedia.org for this article.

Xeriscaping (also known as Xerogardening)

Strange word right? Wait till you know what that means.

Xeriscaping and xerogardening refers to landscaping and gardening in ways that reduce or eliminate the need for supplemental water from irrigation. It is promoted in regions that do not have easily accessible, plentiful, or reliable supplies of fresh water, and is gaining acceptance in other areas as climate patterns shift.

The word xeriscaping is a portmanteau of xeros (Greek for "dry") and landscaping, and Xeriscape is used for this style of garden.

Plants whose natural requirements are appropriate to the local climate are emphasized, and care is taken to avoid losing water to evaporation and run-off. While many Denver Water employees helped coin the term xeriscape, Xeriscape and the xeriscape logo are not registered trademarks of Denver Water, the water department of Denver, Colorado. They were created by the Front Range Xeriscape Task Force of Denver Department in 1978. The specific plants used in xeriscaping depend upon the climate. Some common plants used in Western xeriscaping are agave, cactus, lavender, juniper, sedum and thyme.

In some areas, terms such as water-conserving landscapes, drought-tolerant landscaping, zeroscaping, and smart scaping are used instead.

Now isn’t that amazing. I wonder if they could also help lower down cost in San Diego Plant Pricing or California Wholesale Nursery and also if this is applicable to Palm Trees.

Jun 24, 2010

Wishing to be a Mechanic

And then I got interested in doing car mechanics which I am not really knowledgeable of. Ill just quote it here from Wikipedia.org.

An auto mechanic (or car mechanic in British English and motor mechanic in Australian English) is a mechanic who specializes in automobile maintenance, repair, and sometimes modification. An auto mechanic may be knowledgeable in working on all parts of a variety of car makes or may specialize either in a specific area or in a specific make of car. In repairing cars, their main role is to diagnose the problem accurately and quickly. They often have to quote prices for their customers before commencing work or after partial disassembly for inspection. The mechanic uses both electronic means of gathering data as well as their senses. Their job may involve the repair of a specific part or the replacement of one or more parts as assemblies.
Now I am thinking how knowledgeable auto mechanics or does it varies where they lived. Like for example if they are a repair mechanic in an auto repair in San Diego, or how they do brake repair San Diego or car specialty like San Diego BMW repair.

But until then, until I am delusional I will never figure this out until I would try to learn how do it. How I wish I could. =(

Laser and its FYI's

Technology today is growing and it seems like everybody is in the process of changing everything into something more technological and advance. And one of this change is the introduction of Laser Cosmetic Surgery versus the Old Conventional Scalpel Surgery.

"No bruising, no pain,
and I was back to work the next day."

"If I would have known it was this easy
I would have done it years ago."

This is are the comment that everybody can hear or read when they are comparing the old kind of surgery to a Laser treatment, especially if they are planning to have a Laser Fat Remover or Cold Lasers. But here is some things that we want to find out before we jumped in into a laser surgery. Thanks ASDS.net for the details they have here.

Laser stands for Light Amplification by the Stimulated Emission of Radiation. Lasers work by producing an intense beam of bright light that travels in one direction. The laser beam can cut, seal or vaporize skin tissue and blood vessels. The laser has the unique ability to produce one specific color (wavelength) of light that can be varied in its intensity and pulse duration. Ordinary light from non-laser sources is composed of many different colors and appears white. This broad spectrum of light can also be pulsed to a specific duration and varied in intensity as well as the exact range of wavelengths. This allows broad spectrum Intense Pulsed Light (IPL) the ability to specifically treat blood vessels and pigmentation. The wavelength and power output of a particular laser or IPL typically determines its medical application. When the laser or IPL light is directed at skin tissue, its light energy is absorbed by water or pigments found in the skin. Water is found in large amounts in all living cells. Pigments of the skin include hemoglobin, a protein that makes blood red, and melanin, the tan or brown-colored pigment. All three targets absorb laser.

Lasers may offer you and your dermasurgeon the following general benefits:

• Improved therapeutic results
• Reduced risk of infection
• "Bloodless" surgery with most lasers
• An alternative to traditional scalpel surgery, in some cases
• Less scarring, in most cases
• Precisely controlled surgery, which limits injury to normal skin
• Safe and effective outpatient, same-day surgery for many skin conditions

Different types of lasers and IPL are used to treat a variety of skin conditions, birthmarks and growths and cosmetic complaints. Presently, no single laser or IPL is capable of treating all skin conditions, but certain lasers can be tuned to a variety of colors of light or coupled to a robotized scanning device to expand their clinical effectiveness. Your dermatologic surgeon will carefully evaluate your individual condition and suggest the appropriate type of laser and/or IPL system to achieve the best results.

Experts in skin care, dermatologic surgeons have extensive training and experience with laser and IPL surgery. In fact, most of the latest advances in laser and IPL technology and its applications were pioneered and refined by dermasurgeons.

Now if you think that the derma surgeon that you have has passed and approved to all of the consideration that everyone has to consider, then I don’t think its not bad anymore to have a Body Sculpting Surgery with them.

To Travel with or without an Agency

Vacation, vacation, vacation and a more of vacation. This is one thing that always motivates me when I wanted to give up with the all the workload that I have. I can be somewhat delusional trying to think of going to a lot of places like staying in Staybridge Palmdale CA. Staying to those places is a luxury for anybody but good thing that now a days everybody thinks of getting a trip with convenience with organization. And then here comes our little agency friend, Travel Agency.

Traveling booking in a Traveling agency has their cons and pros. Here is some detailed information of what are the things that we should know when planning to travel with a Travel Agency.

Lets start with disadvantages:

1.) Scams – everybody does a little or lot of scams now a days and one of their cons are setting up a so-good-to-be-true travel agency. So be careful in choosing an agency.

2.) Limited and not by choice – everybody wants to have their own choice and not just mandated of what just to do or where to stay

3.) Over rated prices – not all of the things offered by agencies are cheap but sometimes very expensive compared to other places within the travel spot.

But, its not all disadvantages. Travelling with them has their own light sides too such as convenience and a lot more like:

1.) Your freedom to choose there and when to go – and this is the most convenient part.

2.) Get privileged to see places that are not commonly shown to usual tourists

3.) Risky but safe – risk is always at hand when going to different places but because you’re traveling with them, safety is one of their priority which ensures you of your whole safety while travelling with them. Now anywhere you go, even if your staying in an antelope valley hotels, you know your safe and that’s one of the things that every travelers would like to have.

4.) Options – because they are not just agency around, you have a lot of options to choose from and prices are more usually different in any agency which will eventually lead you to a cheaper one.

After weighing all those cons and pros, now try to think of the places where you want to stay or have a taste spending the night in Lancaster California Hotel.

Jun 23, 2010

WOW for Furnitures

It is really hard to look for bed frames which we can easily use in our bed. Simply because it’s not easy to look for a better one and cheap one, but it’s because its also hard to look for a reliable one. We know that some companies just sell stuffs for them to earn profit but aside from that, they don’t focus on quality.

When I saw this bed frame, I was amazed of its simplicity and the style and design that it has. It is simply amazing knowing that we usually find this one expensive. Good thing that it is sold in a more reasonable price which you can easily find at Homeandliving.com Good thing as well that they provide free shipping and a bigger wow because they offer no sales tax. Now isn’t it a real WOW?

Wishing in Hving a Companion at Home

I really love dogs and I would really love to keep and take care of one but because I am not a locale on the place that I am living with, it is kind of impossible. I actually found out that dogs actually have a lot of beneficial effects especially with their companionship. On the study that I have read, here are the concluded things that they can actually benefit human:
  • Decreased feelings of anxiety, stress and isolation
  • Increased self-esteem, sense of responsibility and competence in older children
  • Enhanced respect for all living beings
And its good thing because it will also motivate you to beautify your place to make it livable not just for you and for other living things as well. For dog’s you will be investing for some dog houses that they need to live in, dog litter box for them to litter with and so much more.
Responsibility in taking care of a dog doesn’t just end in feeding them. Like a kid you also have to invest to them. This could be done by doing some training sessions on how to be obedient or housebreaking your puppy. And it’s kind of amazing that they can be trained. In fact, there are a lot of feedbacks when it comes to training them which you can just read or hear from your friends. This can be read in different website which you can easily search in Google such as Dog Toilet Testimonials and Dog training for guarding.
I am really looking forward to have a dog, hopefully I could have one. =(

Skin Parasite Breakthrough

Skin parasites are living things that are living in other living things. As long as it’s a living thing, anybody can be a host. That doesn’t limit human which they can live internally or externally. These pesky parasites take nourishment from their hosts and reproduce which causes health problem once they have decided to live there. That is why some formulation or medicine have been made to kill skin parasites but not everything is effective.

Now a research has just made it and a Skin Parasite Breakthrough has been created to helpskin parasite treatment. This people has created a treatment to totally eliminate and be parasite-free especially to lice, mite or chigger which causes a lot of skin diseases that people get’s dreaded off. Want to know more? Then visit Allstop.com to know more.

Jun 21, 2010

5 Tips in Eye Care

Our eyes is the most neglected part of our body which is the most helpful and useful piece that we have in our entire life. That is one of the reason why taking care of it is important. Worry no more cause I just found out some 5 tips to remember in taking care of your eyes. Thanks to Dirjournal.com for this one.

  1. Get your eyes examined regularly—It’s recommended that you gets your eyes checked at least every two years. This goes for you too, Mr. 20/20 Vision. The truth is that even if you’ve always had perfect vision, your eyesight can start to decline. And because vision changes occur slowly, you may not even realize that you can’t see as well anymore. A routine exam will ensure your eyes are in good health, and if you need glasses or contacts, you can get them so you won’t strain your eyes. For kids and older adults, it’s best to get eyes checked even more often, perhaps yearly. If you want to to, you can visit USAEyes as they provide quality eye service and check up. You can also visit their website which is USAEyes.org.

  2. Don’t squint or strain your eyes—Squinting and forcing your eyes to work hard can take a toll on your eyes. They may not cause your vision to change, but these acts can lead to eye fatigue. When your eyes are tired, you could experience headaches and other similar symptoms. Straining your eyes is usually a sign of poor vision, so if you have tired eyes on a regular basis, it might be time to get an eye exam.

  3. Pay attention to warning signs—The great thing about the human body is that it normally gives us little indicators whenever something is wrong. This goes for your eyes too. There are a lot of warning signs you need to pay attention to. I already mentioned eye fatigue…that’s one warning sign. Other signs to look out for include blurry vision, trouble focusing, headaches, red eyes, sudden loss of vision, and general eye pain. Take any and all of these symptoms very seriously, and go see an ophthalmologist (eye doctor) immediately.

  4. Know what you’re putting in your eyes—Do you use eye drops on a regular basis? If so, you need to take some time to read the label before you continue using the product. Some eye drops aren’t meant to be used while you’re wearing contact lenses. Other eye drops can actually stop working or cause problems if you continue use for too long. Always read the label before putting anything in your eyes.

  5. Eat your veggies—It’s not a myth: Carrots and other vegetables really are good for your eyes. That’s because carrots are chock full of beta carotene which helps you enjoy healthy eyes.
We should always be taking care of our eyes, as we can only have one pair of eyes and will never have a replica of a new one again. For some teaching stories, you might want to read the story that I got from the website entitled "A Lighter, Decter Touch" introducing some help from USAeyes and Lasik.

Los Angeles Insurance

Are you looking for some insurance company that can provide you insurances in Los Angeles, look no more. Los Angeles Car Insurance is here to save you.

Are you looking to purchase Health, Auto, Life and/or Home Insurance? You have come to the right place. Our website, InsuranceLosAngeles.us is unique in that we don’t simply stick to one kind of insurance carrier, but we bring you the best deals from many online insurance carriers. This way, you have offers from multiple carriers all in one place – our website!

If you call Statefarm or another insurance company, they will attempt to sell you just the insurances they offer. And while Statefarm may offer cheaper home insurance quotes, their car insurance may cost more than Mercury. Therefore, you should never stick to one company when purchasing insurance.

On our site, you will be to access quotes for insurance plans from various agencies, such as local or nationwide agencies, brand names insurance companies, etc. All you have to do is pick the plan that works for you!

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Los Angeles Auto Insurance – You are already aware that you must purchase car insurance if you drive a car or truck by California law. So, help yourself out by finding the most comprehensive and cheapest rate available.

Life Insurance – There are many life insurance policies out there, such as term and universal life insurance. They all offer various things, from different monthly payments, to different payout structures throughout your lifetime, or if you happen to pass away. Check out different options on our website.

Home Insurance – Protecting your property is just smart. You definitely want to make sure that you are protected in case any kind of damage to your property occurs. You’ll want to pick the best policy that will protect your investment and your belongings without breaking the bank.

We are here to help you find the most affordable, compatible and comprehensive insurance coverage offered anywhere!

Jun 18, 2010

Houses Galore

I really wanted to have my own house in the future, but upon looking at this pictures of houses, I'm thinking twice of making my own house and instead I will just live there. Or maybe work there?

Got this article in Haute Living Magazine entitled Celebrity Living: Los Angeles by Stephanie Wilson on January 2nd, 2008. You might want to see it again.

Rod Stewart
Beverly Park

Larry King
Beverly Hills

Arnold Schwarzenegger


David Beckham
Beverly Hills

Beverly Hills

Tom Cruise
Beverly Hills

I'd rather live there than make one. The lot itself in Beverly Hills already cost a fortune and me having one, never mind.

Nicking Phone System,

Phone system now a days has significantly improved. I could remember before when Graham Bell invented the first telephone and how funny does it look like. Well some rumors are saying that it was not Bell who created the first telephone but nevertheless, I don't really care. I care the most is the day it was created and how it was improved over the years.

Before, there was no such thing as Phone Systems. We usually just have a simple telephone. But now, everything evolved in a matter of time. People are not just satisfied with a simple telephone line. Well to give you an understanding of what I am talking about. I rather show you a picture of it.

Now isn't this amazing but complicated the same time? Gosh, I would really be very happy to have one of this set up in my home. Lol.

Poem about Thunder

I saw this poem in one of the forum board that I was looking at while randomly searching in google. its all about solidarity and thundery and its pretty amazing.

They predicted
Late afternoon

Tearing the sky
A purple streak
Left me blinded

My mind thinking
In line syncing
Failed on me now
My eyes recovered
Camera fired
Shot relentlessly
Occasional cracks
Directly above
Drew my eyes upward
For more than an hour
Watching the flashes

I stayed at my post
Looked out to the coast
Where the sun had been
One wouldn't have known
That as rain doused me
Fires raged 'cross the bay

written by scout

Jun 16, 2010

Legion Safety for your Safety

Construction companies invest a lot when it comes to their employee security. That is because they want to make sure that at the end of the day, they don’t pay their employees a full blown money because of accidents or worse, death. That is why Legion Safety provides and offers quality construction accessories and hats to provide safety to your employees. Earplugs and earmuffs, coated and cut-resistant work gloves, dusk masks, face shields, arc flash kits or even protection suits, they got everything you need at the most reasonable prices.

So if your company values protection, then this is the construction needs that you will need. How to get there, just visit their website at www.LegionSafety.com.

Jun 15, 2010

Shop Real Truck

For truck lovers looking for a website to enhance and beautify their truck door, then you’ve just arrived to the right place. Shop Real truck offers the best truck accessories that you will ever need. They turn doors or tailgates in to chrome such as chrome door handle covers which is a very splendid color to look at in a truck.

Jun 14, 2010

MyEventHub.com and its Fun

What is MyEventHub.com?

MyEventHub.com by Fashion Designer Bian Variani is an entertainment and events social networking website which focuses on promoting yourself to different related fashion and entertainment events so that you will be hired and worked on that event. This website also allows you to buy or create a customize event tickets for you to sell. If you think you know or your good in throwing a party and event, then this place is a place to start your career.
Who are the people invited to use this website?
Whether you’re a model, designer in fashion, party goer, a stardom wannabee or just hanging along in the fashion world, this website is for you. This website actually invites everybody and anybody to join to have a shine of the world of glamorous limelight and this website is your social networking medium.
What features does MyEventHub.com have?
Well since this is a social networking medium as well, expect that you have Profile Page to customize base on the taste and how you want viewers to view your page. You can just choose your own website name and they will make it happen. Here is an example of the website:
For example my account is: http://www.myeventhub.com/variani (hence the "variani" my last name)
Do I need to pay to create an Account?
Not necessary. There is a free account which gives you access to a lot of things likes:

  • Unlimited uploading of pictures to your profile

  • Adding biography

  • Adding News Flash to your page so your friends or fans are up to date on what’s going on with your life, events or company. Or if your not an event promoter, just let them know what you have for tonight to party with.

  • Area 51 is a personal wall in which user can post comments on your page driving traffic and attention to your profile. Good thing is you have the privilege to have the full control of accepting, deleting or even editing the comments before it appears to your page.

  • Creating unlimited events with tickets to sell or giveaway for free.
 Isn’t this exciting enough, lets go and grab the fun now and be the star of the night.

Car Donations for Veterans

A lot of people around the globe create a different version of charity works which main objective is to help people. This charity works has a lot of sources to fund with and some of them are greatly know already because of the help that they are providing. Usually, charity works asks for money but not all. Especially this charity named as Cars Helping Veterans which does not ask for money donations but instead car donations. It might be a bit shocking or let’s say too pricey for a charity work but you might want to think again why they are doing it.

This charity focuses on veterans who had helped USA as one of the best country today. Of course they are one of the USA best heroes though there are not that popular. They were the first people who had put their life in line just to defend their country. But because of the global crisis that they are experiencing today, most veterans are sleeping in the streets without a home. You can’t blame them since they are already old and giving them a job is only 1% of probability that would happen. That is why they are asking the people to donate car which they are going to use to raise fund for shelter, food and clothing of these veterans.

This might be too pricey but my take on this is that I don’t think they are looking for an expensive cars, I think they are just looking for those cars that at least can still be make used of into something which is already an expense for other people. As we all know, helping other people is priceless no matter how cheap are we donating.

If you’re wondering how to do vehicle donations, it’s easy as 1, 2, 3. Just go their website by clicking on the links that we have here. Then click on the Car Application Form and fill out that form (remember that car donation is nationwide). Afterwards, you just have to schedule when they will pick up the car which will they do for free. Once its done, you will receive your tax deductible car donation receipt.

So if you have spare cars that you think that no one will use or you no longer can use, try donating one and save a veteran.

Jun 12, 2010

LASIK Eye Surgery

Lasik (Laser-assisted in Situ Keratomileusis) is known to be a type of refractive surgery for correcting myopia, hyperopia and astigmatism. This is usually done by ophthalmologist by using a laser. This surgery is same like the other surgical corrective procedures like photorefractive keratectomy, PRK and ASA (Advanced Surface Ablation) but it provides more benefits such as faster recovery for patients. LASIK and PRK represent the advance technology over radial keratotomy in terms of surgical treatment of vision problems, and the needed alternatives for this are to wear corrective eyeglasses or contact lenses for patients.

There are a lot of anomalies for this treatment but despite of it, this has been the main and most often performed surgery in the US that it was recommended for aviator to undergo such surgery. Aside from that, STAHL Eye Center doctors’ patient outcomes have been independently verified by nonprofit Lasik patient advocacy to meet and even exceed the national norms for Lasik results. That is why there are only fewer than 100 doctors nationwide, that includes Dr. Thierry Hufnagel who have attained the certification to perform this surgery. Mostly the doctors who had this certification came from top universities such as UCLA, John Hopkins and Yale. STAHL Eye Center was known to set up a good reputation in three different locations in New York which includes Manhattan and Long Island.

On the article that I have read from Wikipedia,

“The surveys determining patient satisfaction with LASIK have found most patients satisfied, with satisfaction range being 92–98 percent. A meta-analysis dated March 2008 performed by the American Society of Cataract and Refractive Surgery over 3,000 peer-reviewed articles published over the past 10 years in clinical journals from around the world, including 19 studies comprising 2,200 patients that looked directly at satisfaction, revealed a 95.4 percent patient satisfaction rate among LASIK patients worldwide.”
This surgery has been known to be one of the best in terms of technological break through and in spite of whatever anomalies you may hear. But before considering on having this kind of surgery, you have to consult first because there is a lot of tedious process to follow before you are able to perform this.

Jun 10, 2010

Cheap Perfume and its Wonder

I am really used to buying cheap perfumes but I always make sure that it is a quality one. There are a lot of store where you can get cheap perfumes or you can even search for Cheap Perfume online. For me price doesn't matter, it's the scent that it brings to a person using it and the impression that it leaves to the person smelling it. What ever perfume you have like Thierry Mugler Violet, Peony Gap, Bulgari or etc, you won't be bringing the tag of the perfume where ever you go. As long as the smell is pretty amazing and the fragrance of it keeps seducing people to make them smell your perfume, that is always the winning choice. And that alone is the most powerful tool you can use to make them envy you.

Home Rentals and its Benefit

Renting is an agreement where payment is usually made for the temporary use of goods, service or property that are owned by another. Basically this means that you pay for something that you borrow. Usually there is a corresponding agreement or contract involved to give a specification of what you are trying to rent, and usually are regulated and managed under contract law.

Most of this renting agreement that are commonly seen now a days are home rentals. Base on the compounded words that it is using, its where you rent houses for a specific period of time. Usually this are marketed by real estate people and are served in different purpose such us housing tenure (where the lessee rents a residence to live in), parking space for cars or vehicles, storage spaces, whole or portions of properties which is used for different business organizations or just simply that you need a house to live in.

Well for me, going for a home rental is pretty ok especially if you don't live in that place. This is better than renting a room or bed spacing because your privacy and the feeling if living in a home is sacrificed. The expenses of renting a home might be overwhelming but there is lot of things to benefit from it which money couldn't buy such as having a good time to sleep, walking around home without being anxious of what to wear and even sleep anywhere at any part of the house. That is why I chose I to live in and rent a home here because of such luxury.

Car Insurance Quotes Online

Vehicle insurance (also known as auto insurance, car insurance, or motor insurance) is insurance purchased for cars, trucks, and other vehicles. Its primary use is to provide protection against losses incurred as a result of traffic accidents and against liability that could be incurred in an accident.
Vehicle insurance can cover some or all of the following items: 

  • The insured party

  • The insured vehicle

  • Third parties (car and people)

  • Third party, fire and theft
In some jurisdictions coverage for injuries to persons riding in the insured vehicle is available without regard to fault in the auto accident (No Fault Auto Insurance). Different policies specify the circumstances under which each item is covered. For example, a vehicle can be insured against theft, fire damage, or accident damage independently.
So what are you waiting for, start doing a Car Insurance Quotes Online so you will know how can you avail of this vehicle insurance and what are you entitled for.

Link Building

Link Building is now considered one of the most important part in terms of SEO (Search Engine Optimization). This is done by by getting other websites to link going to your website. Link Building having quality backlinks is one of the most important aspects that are usually considered by different search engines, and at the same time determining the rankings of a site. That is why, creating backlinks is a very important task for site owners because it helps them promote their website in different search engines.

Backlinking is one of the known and most effective techniques in terms of Search Engine Optimization for one website. Links pointing to one website is one of the most dominant off-page factors. That is why every body is considering in doing this its just that this is a very tedious and extensive task to do. This is one of the reasons why most of the website owners does sign up for link exchange, the most convenient part is where they outsource link building by buy links or sign off to a link exchange website by doing favors to other website as well. They usually do this because they don't have enough time to carry out a genuine link building campaign.

Jun 8, 2010

5 Tips to do After a Car Accident

Car Accident happens around the world at anytime of the day. In the United States, this is rampant during winter months because of the slippery road and accompanied with strong rains which blocks people from seeing the road. When a car collision just had happened, it is usually hard to think what to do so its better that we know what to do before an accident happens. Here are some ideas that we might want to do first after an accident happen. Make sure you read this very well and print it out so you’ll have a copy with this in your car.

  • Know what are the Damages or Injuries that it has caused. The key to any accidents is to stay calm because panicking will not do any good and will only make the situation worse. So try to breathe out for a while and check the damages or injuries it has caused so you would know what to do next.

  • File a Report of Accidence with the Police. Whatever accidents you have, it is imperative that we create a legal file report which could benefit us in the long run especially if there are legalities or complaints involved. Make sure that you never leave the scene until the filing of report is already done.

  • Discuss what happened only with the Authorities. Accidents always attract a lot of people and that is a fact. A lot of people would just want to get a scene and even culprits are in the scene trying to take advantage of the situation. I know it might be shocking especially if these things happened but let us keep in mind to always and ONLY talk to people with authority such as the POLICE. Never disclose any details or information aside from them and to your insurance agent. And a friendly advice, limit your discussion and never admit any fault or liability.  

  • Know the Truth of the Accident. Always get the details of the people involved in an accident. We might be shook still but never forget of things that you need to take down for those people involved in the accidents. Make sure you have the Name, address and phone numbers and make sure they can present any ID’s to attest the truthfulness of their identities. Don’t just rely on their license plate because for some insurance companies, they will just record the type of car and the vehicle identification number.

  • Call Your Insurance Company. We should always make it a point to call our insurance company right away. Some companies such as Auto Insurance Los Angeles has toll free number like this, 1-800-475-6840. Having insurances in this company will be convenient at your part because you can call them anytime especially if the accident had just happened and the reports are not yet done. That would be the best thing that you can do because police officers can give insurance company a more accurate information which saves you a lot of time waiting for your claim to be approved.

Jun 7, 2010

Text Pal (so strange)

I find this story a bit scary rather than touching. Lol.
My cellphone's beeping sound woke me up one night. Used to receiving important messages only, I grabbed my cell and sleepily pushed the keys and read the message.

"Hi there! Care 2 b my txtmate?"

Not knowing who the sender was, I deleted the message right away and placed the phone on my bedside table, I tried to go back to sleep.

I had just closed my eyes when I heard the message tone again.

"Hi there, again! Care 2 b my txtmate?" again, the message said.

"Who the hell could this be asking for txtmate at the wee hours of the night?" I asked myself.

Again, without bothering to reply I deleted the message.

I was never a 'textmaniac' - someone who enjoys texting anyone and everyone even at the wee hours of night, not to mention during the day. My parents, who were always out of the country forced me to own a cellphone. They told me that having one was more convenient - they could monitor me even if they're miles away.

I wanted to turn the unit off, but since my mother was fond of calling me at night, just to check if I was safe at home, I decided not to.

Just as I was to close my eyes and return to my dreamless sleep, the phone beeped again.

Same number...Such determination!

"Ply reply 2 dis msg & b an angel & save me frm dis abyss of emptiness!!!"

I never knew why, but the message struck me. I got up and pushed the keys... I just realized I was replying to the message.

"Im not an angel, n f u want som1 2 save u, m not superman... I'm just a simple prson who u wake up at dis r of my nyt!!! Nway, do I know u?" I typed.

Seconds later came the reply.

"Nope. U don't know dis lonely soul. Nor does she know u. But I want 2 b ur frnd. I'm Mikaella Cervantes. U?"

"Just call me Julius. How'd u get my no.?" I sent back.

"Hi Julius, nice 2 meet u. Just shuffled the last two digits of mine," she replied.

That was the first and maybe the last time I met someone over the cellphone.

We exchanged messages and learned so much about each other that night. We only said goodbye when my alarm clock rang at 5:00 AM! I had to prepare for school!

And that was also how it all started. A day would not pass without it loving and thoughtful messages from her. It was only then I had learned to appreciate text messages and become eager and excited everytime my phone beeped, hoping it would be her.

Mikaella brought out something about me that I never knew I had; I realized I could also be a romantic person... even if it's just through text messaging.

"Keep me as a frnd & I will keep u in my heart. Lock it up & throw away d key so dat no1 can evr tke u away from me..."
One day, she sent this message to me.

I replied: 'In life, we seldom find a true prson & f u evr find 1, hold on & nvr let go... value dat prson coz it's lyf's gift worth keeping & holdin on..."

I never knew why, but her response sent shivers to my spine, " Value d people hu hav touched ur life bcoz u will never know just wen dey will walk out of ur lyf & nvr come back again."

I couldn't understand what I felt that moment, but one thing I was sure though... I could not go on a day without a single word from her. I'd become used to having her, eventhough we had not met personally. But truly, she already occupied a space, a large one, in fact in my life.

I texted her back. "Dont come close f l8r ull jst pass by; don't touch me f l8r ull jst let me cry; dont luv me f l8r ull jst leave me and won't stay..."

I didn't know why I sent her that message, but somehow I felt, every word came from my heart. In the short span of time we were sending messages to each other, I knew, I was starting to keep her in my heart.

I called her once. The voice on the other end was like an angel's. Soft, kind, full of love. Yet, there was something in it I couldn't define. We only talked for a few minutes. Before she hung up, she told me not to call again. According to her, it would be better if we would just text each other.

But the voice kept ringing, not only in my head, but in my heart, I'd long to hear it once more. I tried to call her again, but she never answered the phone. She just kept on sending messages and quotations, which I copied in a little notebook. Hopeless romantic? I didn't know. All I could say was that all the messages she sent me were wonderful, they came from the heart and cut through the heart.

"Though we r miles apart, u r always n my heart. I close my eyes & der u r. Even f I'll see u never, I'll always b hir 2 care 4 u, far longer dan 4ever..."

One December night, she sent me this message. By that time we had been exchanging messages for more than a month. God knew how happy I was. She was right. Although we had not seen each other, what we felt was enough to make us both realize what was keeping us together.

I sent her another message, "Loving u secretly is a hard thing 4 me 2 do,hoping, wondring that u will feel d same way 2, but I can't read r mind f u luv me 2. But whatever it is, I'll still be loving u."

"How I wish I cud really tell u how much u mean 2 me, but m afraid 2 love, scared 2 get hurt... I hope dat u will wait 4 me & pray dat u will not get tired of loving me...=)" was her reply.

And then I replied again. " The reason y I met u is bcoz of destiny but f destiny will suggest dat I'll live w/o u, den, I'll lie not by destiny but of free will."

Whenever I asked her when we would meet personally, she always answered, "Soon...soon, love...soon."

Not seeing each other did not lessen, even a bit, what I felt for her...rather, it even grew deeper and stronger each day. And I was sure, she felt the same way, too. Love messages continued to flow through our lines, between our hearts, which made us go on each day with the thought that sooner, we would see each other, face to face, heart to heart.

Just a few days before Christmas. She stopped sending messages. At first I just though she had ran out of prepaid.

But there was something that kept bothering me... I couldn't understand what was it, but it made me fell nervous. I tried to call her but she wouldn't answer. Nevertheless, I continued sending messages.

Suddenly one night, just three days before our Lord's birthday. I heard my phone's message tone again... at last!It was from her!

"Oftentyms we say gudbye 2 d 1 we luv w/o wanting 2. Though dat doesn't mean dat we stopped loving dem or we stopped 2 care. Sometyms, GOODBYE is a painful way 2 say I LOVE YOU."

I was dumfounded. I didn't know what to think of. What did she mean? I texted her back, searching for answers, but found nothing. I called her but she would not answer.

For the first time in my life, I felt so miserable...desperate... empty. I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to lose her. I had learned to love her. And I wanted to be with her forever.

The following days I felt nothing but emptiness. It seemed that Mikaella took the life out of me. I missed her so much...her messages...The tones that would tell me she'd sent another loving message. Nothing around me could feel the emptiness I felt.

Tut...tut...tut...tut...tut...just a day before Christmas, my cell beeped again. It was her!

"Meet me at d café, 10 AM 2day," I read aloud, making sure the message was true, then I jumped with joy upon hearing from her again. Hurriedly, I got myself ready and I went to the mall. I knew it was still early, but I wanted to be there before she arrived.

I arrived at the meeting place ten minutes earlier. I was surprised to see her already there, smiling at me. She was very beautiful, Black, deep-set eyes that spoke a thousand words; small, kissable lips; a nose perfectly chiseled and long black hair - everything in her was beautiful. And yes, her eyes radiated kindness and love...but there was a flicker of something in them...sadness?

"Hi, Julius," said the angelic voice I had been dreaming of each night. The voice that I had waited to hear for so long. "Please sit down." "I am very pleased to meet you, Mikaella," I said, as I took my seat and gave the roses I brought for her.

"Thanks, Julius," she smiled, obviously pleased with the roses. I knew she loved pink roses.

"You are always welcome, Love" "Julius, I can't stay," she said, sadness in her voice, or was it tears? "I really must go."

"But we just met, Mikaella. Can't we talk a little longer?" I asked, pleadingly.

"I can't really. I just came here to see you and thank you for the time you shared with me. Thank you for everything, Julius. I will never forget you...you will always be here in my heart."

She was looking at me straight into the eyes, and I could really feel the sadness in her voice and I swear, there was something in her voice and I swear, there was something in those lovely yet lonely eyes...

She got up and smiled at me, lovingly.

rning, please come and visit me," he said and gave me a piece of white linen paper.

I read what was written and when I looked up, she was gone. The following day, Christmas, I woke up early and excitedly readied myself,thinking of her. I hurriedly went to flower shop and bought a dozen pink roses - for Mikaella.

They lived in an exclusive subdivision.

Upon reaching their house, I told the guard who I was and that I was looking for Mikaella.

The guard stared at me, sadness and amazement in his eyes and told me to wait as he called the owner of the house. As I looked at him while he was going inside the house, only then I noticed that the house was brightly lit.

A woman went out and walked towards me, smiling sadly.

"Hi, I'm Maria, Mikaella's mother. Please come inside, Julius." While we were walking towards the mansion, she explained to me why she knew me very well - Mikaella had always been talking about her friend, Julius. I hardly understood what she was saying. I was busy thinking why Mikaella's mother was crying while talking to me.

As we came near the great hall of the house, it dawned on me that there was a wake inside, Maybe, a relative passed away, I thought. But deep in my heart, I was trembling and afraid.

As we entered the hall where so many people were silently mourning while others were praying, shaking, I asked her mother. "Where is Mikaella?"

She held my hand and silently, led me to the coffin which was surrounded by flowers - pink roses, nothing but pinkroses.

No words could explain how I felt when I gazed at the coffin and saw who was lying there. The same beautiful girl I met...

A man came beside me, I knew he was Mika's father.

"We are so glad you came, Julius. Mika talked of you all the time. She even asked that her phone be buried with her.

She said that in that way, you could still send her messages and you would always be with her."

I couldn't believe everything... My mind was in limbo.

"But how can this be? We just saw each other yesterday."

"That can't possibly be. She passed away three days ago. She had been suffering from a heart disease since she was a child," said her father.

"But..." I couldn't find the words to say.

"She told us not to bother reaching you, "her mother said, still in tears," she said you will come, and here you are.

Pain and bitterness overwhelmed me. I cried silently beside her, staring at her lovely face, memorizing every line of my friend's face, a face I knew I would never forget while I was still alive.

After the internment that afternoon, I went to the chapel she had
told me she went everyday.

Sitting there praying and crying to God, I held my phone and typed: "U taught me how 2 care; u taught me how 2 b kind; u shwd me how 2 lyk som; u shwd me how 2 luv; but ders 1 thing didnt teach me & it hurts mor - u didnt teach me how 2 let go. I LOVE YOU"

I sent the message, and though I knew she wouldn't be able to hold her CP again, I knew in my heart she would get my message. I never expected a reply, yet as my phone beeped again,felt a shiver down my spine. The sender's number did not appear on the screen, and tears rolled down my cheeks as I read the message.

"Let go of d hand of d person u love, but dont let go of God's hand. 4 if u hold 2 his hand. He may b holding d person u love n d ader hand 2 let u hold each other again."

"I will never forget you, Mikaella and will never let go..." I vowed to her and to myself as I left the church.

Jun 5, 2010

Small Misunderstanding and Regrets

Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young. Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he is today. I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant greenery. Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down, he said: "Lets go fetch mother".

Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to test on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets. Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy. I became addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling.

Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her. For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat flowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better." Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowly you will get use to it". Mother stopped saying anything.

But every time thereafter, whenever came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it. Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it." There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle.

Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast. In your view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother facial expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest. As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and am exhausted from along day of dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the protest mother makes.

From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon her help created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; she would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash them again. One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me.... I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?" After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house.

During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please. In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for having failed to perform my duty as a wife. To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work. That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you chose not to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me.. After some time, hubby sighed: "LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no choice but to return to the breakfast table.

The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up my throat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I could not. I threw down the bowl, rushed into the washroom, and vomited everything out. Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudly in her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at me with fire burning in his eyes.. I opened my mouth but no words came out of it, I really did not mean it.

We had our very first big fight that day; mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house. Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs. For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call. I was so furious, since mother arrived; I had been trying my best and putting up with her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I keep having the feeling to throw up and I simply have not appetite for food, coupled with all the events happening at home, I was at then low point in my life. Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible; you should go and see a doctor." The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant.

Now it became clear to me why I threw up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news. Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through this before, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day? At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only been three days, but he looked haggard. I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look at him and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called out to him. He followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't know me; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right through my heart. I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby: "Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me around in circles
of joy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears started rolling down. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of one fight?

Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the disgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket. That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face. He was removing the money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book and some money and left the house. Maybe he really intends to leave me for good. What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters. I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again.

The next day, I did not go to work.. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby. I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital." I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless. I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen?

Throughout the funeral, hubby did not say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people. That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed toward the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the countryside. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her...I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if....In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother.

Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self-pity and could hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in. I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.

Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby came home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot in his heart. One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant. After recovering from that moment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything. The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go, hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her. He stared back at me, challenging me. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death. I eventually backed down, if I had stood that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me. That night, he did not come home; he had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other.

He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned to take some of his stuff. I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished. I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physical examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby, I told them No, I will not.. I insisted on having to this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death.

One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it. In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait a while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like mine. As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there. After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy. I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pulled the paper towards me. Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the paper to him. "LD, are you pregnant?" Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said: "Yes, but its ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing each other. Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart, everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach them. I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me. I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scars in each other's heart. For me, it's unintentional; for him, totally intentional. I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated.

Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart, I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him. From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart. Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother's room. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet... This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I ignore him, he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with him, he would then grab me and laugh. He has forgotten that last time I cared for him and am concerned because there was love, but now, what is there between us? Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing but I continuously ignored him.

Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying to use this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions. He has no choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing but none of that matters to me anymore.

It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brow, throughout the journey to the hospital. Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind: In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did? He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in; his warm eyes caused me to manage a smile at him despite my contraction pain. Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son and me, eyes tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand. Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his... I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment. Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to last this long. I asked the doctor when he first discovered he had cancer. Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral."

I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me. Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I had thought that... the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son: "Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now.... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be. But daddy now no longer has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion ... Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through life journey. To be honest, daddy is very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..." From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was written there.

Hubby has also written a letter for me: "My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby...My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile, thank you for loving me...These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging... "

Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..." He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son still in his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air. I press the button on the camera and the sound of the shutter rang through the air as tears slowly rolled down my face.... A fatal misunderstanding and the person who loves me the most in this world is gone forever..."Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family. Our originals intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong as destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price, everything became too late."........

This is a true story.

I am totally speechless, this story brought tears to my eyes as I read through each line eager to know what would happen next. It truly showed the devastating power of grudges and anger! Simple humility and communication would have resolved most of the problems in that story, as well as patience.... This story has really touched my heart and life as a whole and it has stimulated a paradigm shift. Though it is very sad, it is also very refreshing to know that from today, I can consciously start to live a life free of grudge. People please let's live a life devoid of grudge. Communication is the key.

Take greatest care and live on.