Google Mispelled?

I am not sure if all of you has observed the largest search page site having two L's. Well question no more, I found the site that gave the explanation for this error. Got this one from Telegraph.co.uk.

Googlle: Google releases misspelt logo to mark 11th anniversary

The search giant's name appeared with an extra letter "l" on its home page on Sunday, a change that did not escape the notice of the internet.

Within hours of the new logo going live, "why is google spelt wrong" and "why does google have two ls" were two of the most popular search phrases on the web.

Google was formed by Larry Page and Sergey Brin 11 years ago this month – in September 1998 – and the company has in the past altered its doodle to celebrate its own anniversaries.

For its tenth birthday last year the first letter "o" in Google was replaced with a cupcake.

Google has always used its logo as a way of commemorating important historical dates and major world events, but has become increasingly playful in recent weeks.

Last week Google put paid to speculation about the meaning of three "unexplained phenomena" doodles by admitting that they were designed to commemorate the 143rd birthday of the novelist HG Wells.

The first mysterious Google doodle appeared on September 5, and showed a flying saucer hovering over the Google logo and "abducting" the letter "O".

On September 15, a second Google doodle appeared, showing a flying saucer hovering over a field. The Google logo was spelt out as series of crop circles, and clicking on the doodle produced a list of web pages related to crop circles.

The third doodle, on September 21, featured a scene from Wells's book War of the Worlds.

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Towel Wrap and Bag Wish for this Christmas

Christmas is fast approaching. If your gonna check, starting from this post, it'll be 90 days more before Christmas Day would be back again to be cherished by different people. In our circle of friendship, were already planning where to celebrate. We are thinking of going in to a nature tripping which we never had before. I can't wait to do trekking and hiking. Then after a long day, sitting and merrymaking in the near cottages on the pool with comfortable towel wraps to protect you from the coldness. What an imaginable sight to think of.

I'm thinking of what towel wraps to wear since it comes in different colors or hopefully, someone would come up of giving me a personalized towel wraps like those from terry towel wrap. Its so comfortable, cool and trendy to wear with. Having those would be a very dainty and sweet thing to receive as a gift this coming Christmas since its a rare sight to have one of those. Or like receiving a personalized duffle bag, of course personalizing it would make it more special since everything can have any kind since everything can be bought in the store. This would be useful for different outdoor adventures or trips. Woah! I'm thinking a lot when Christmas is still 90 days to go. Hopefully I can receive any of those things this Christmas. *looking at the skies thinking of Santa Claus*

Some Realization

a speech that made me smile;

"many people will walk in and out and out of your life,
but later on the journey you'll find someone,
that will leave footprints in your heart."

People come and go in life but they make you realize a thing or two of what you have. Inspire you in different ways, make you love life to the fullest, breaks your heart, leaves you scar and give you lessons to ponder. What's ironic sometimes is you tend to keep them but due to unfortunate twist of fate, its not yours to keep. Sometimes you do the unthinkable act just to have them back but still efforts are all wasted. Until one day, you get to hold of the same thing. Like a fire sprinkled with water, you'll try to resist it but eventually will still be defeated. Then bliss comes, unending and never ending. Pain comes in the most unexpected way, but eventually it'll brushed off because you know something in the air is keeping it alive. And you'll do anything just to keep that feeling forever. I could say I am a witness of such thing, where melancholic hymns of affection run through your mind. The hard thing, its hard to admit that I'm on that state, like everything is so unreal. Its hard holding back like your afraid falling down again. It's hard falling in love, especially when you had said your through with it. But what they say, love make people fools not even the smartest man in the world could resist. I found mine, wishing this would be a start of a new journey as well. Love you so Alles, this one is for you. ^_^

Sunshine
*Gabrielle*


Made a wish, I can dream
I can be what I want to be
Not afraid to live my life
And fulfill my fantasies

I learned a lot of tricks to help me live my life
You helped me find my paradise
When you came I saw

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

Reaching out, for the highs
You inspired me to try
I felt the magic inside
And I felt that I could fly
I'm looking at the world in an optimistic light
You made me appreciate my life
'Cos when you came you were my

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

You are the calm
I am the storm
You are the breeze that carries me on
When I said a truth
You wink at me
You're there for me

Sunshine (oh yeah)
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star

(Sunshine) Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine
My star, my star..

Waking Up in Vegas - Katty Perry

Catchy song I just heard during our team building. Katty can really sing songs.

Waking Up in Vegas
*Katty Perry*

You gotta help me out
It's all a blur last night
We need a taxi 'cause you're hung-over and I'm broke
I lost my fake I'd but you lost the motel key
Spare me your freakin' dirty looks
Now don't play me
You want to cash out and get the hell out of town

[CHORUS:]
Don't be a baby
Remember what you told me
Shut up and put your money where your mouth is
That's what you get for waking up in Vegas
Get up and shake the glitter off your clothes, now
That's what you get for waking up in Vegas

Why are these lights so bright
Oh, did we get hitched last night, dressed up like Elvis,
And why, why am I wearing your class ring?
Don't call your mother
'Cause now we're partners in crime

[CHORUS:]
Don't be a baby
Remember what you told me
Shut up and put your money where your mouth is
That's what you get for waking up in Vegas
Get up and shake the glitter off your clothes, now
That's what you get for waking up in Vegas

You got me into this
Information overload, situation lost control
Send out an S.O.S.
And get some cash out
We're gonna tear up the town

Don't be a baby
Remember what you told me [x3]
Told me, you told me, you told me
Shut up and put your money where your mouth is
That's what you get for waking up in Vegas
Get up and shake the glitter off your clothes, now
That's what you get for waking up in Vegas
Shake the glitter, shake, shake, shake the glitter, c'mon!
Give me some cash out baby
Give me some cash out, honey

Null Changes

I used to say before that "I'm better off alone" after a couple of heart aches that I experienced before. I use to laugh with my friends especially when they, with their special someone, are arguing with something not worth arguing for. I use to have a share of that experience but its too rare cause I usually run away from it till later on, I have nothing to come back for. Some negative complexity that I had which I can't control. Till later I had the taste of same cup which I never thought I'd fall again. Funny though cause it's not the old thing I use to have. I would say it had changed some of my perception in life and had me doing things I could only think of. It's some what different or maybe its because I'm not used to this anymore. Life that I did grew up and had existed with has been different. And new approach that he's trying to show has been a bit smudgy for me. I can see he's undying effort, I would admit its me that who's not trying. I did made believe that I did, but I really am not exerting much effort to change for more. I don't know, maybe because my personal perception about change had been changed and now its defying my pride on how I perceive change. I didn't know I have to make someone suffer for the coldness that I had built up with. I wonder if he can take it long enough before I could change? I'm fearing I could be too late, that I have to lose everything before I could realize what I've got.

Personal Stress Relief from Economic, Environmental Issues

Well change certainly don't happen just in a snap. Foremost it usually happens in a slow process. Just imagine how a snail do move from one side of the road to another without thinking of a chance if that snail can do cross over or gonna run by a thing and smash out. Ouch. Some environmental issues that we are not in control of.

We usually demand changes in every way we want to just to live life the way we want it to be. People are doing things just to have changes for good, but with the major changes of the technology and the people living in the modern days today, you will see not all of them care for the changes. We could hear someone crying out to change to have personal stress relief from economic. Those people striving to have a better life which they usually had before but was taken away, because of different things that such as economic problems or some environmental issues.

We usually rant, but were not even sure if we are contributing as well. We want personal stress relief from economic but are we helping?. We usually say we can do this and that, I'm better than this and that, but have we even thought of things if we have changes done to ourselves. Of course, we'll say yes. I did this and that, but was that enough for the change that we wanted? Or just enough to say that you have done something for change?

Each Time - East 17

goodbye's sometimes gets tiring especially if it happens every single day.

Each Time
*East 17*

Have you heard of the saying
For those who were playing
You don't know what you got till its gone

Well that was my calling
I knew what I was falling into
something that would be so wrong

But I got hold of myself
And changed for the better
I can't get you out of my mind
Cause something inside
made me realize you were fine

Chorus:
Each time we we're alone
I guess I didn't know
How far we were apart
Should have spoken from heart
I guess I didn't know
That each time you go away,I cry
I can't take all these goodbyes

I know from this feeling
Deep inside there's a healing
I know that i'm in control

Everyday I am yearning
This love I feel burning
Burning right through my soul

So let's make a start
Of something that cannot be broken
The mold its so strong

Treat this love as a child
That grows into something worth while

Chorus

Deep love's so deep
Deep love's so deep, yea
I can't take all these goodbyes

Faithfully, I will be
You will see, please believe me
I can't take all these goodbyes

Chorus

All the time we were alone
Guess I should have really known
Baby you have always been mine
All the time we were alone
Guess I should have really known
Baby you have always been mine

8 Phrases of Dating

here's the irony of life with regards to dating and getting married. i found this one in my friend, Chenee's blog. probably because of boredom she was able to swoop to this pictographic story. funny but its a fact. it just describes how funny life could be.

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Gifts for Gives

Different events in ones life has always been a limelight of an individual. Shopping for different gift such as memorabilia and collectibles has been always a tradition for this kind of stuffs. Like me today, I'm thinking of things to buy for my friend who's gonna have her birthday this coming Sunday. I'm always on hunt for stuffs that will be memorable for my friends. Not those that can easily be bought or too common. When I give out gifts, it should have its relevance why I chose that thing. Like for example, I gave out a watch or a clock. It is for them to be reminded that time is gold and they should always have to have time for themselves. Stuffs like those, Sometimes I find it weird, but eventually I get delighted seeing those faces upon receiving it.

To buy gifts for friends or relatives, there's a lot of things to consider. Of course you need to consider the recipient wants and needs. Like if your recipient would be a person who really loves reading, you can go and check out some stores for rare books that they might have interest with. Or if your tired walking around looking for bookshops and rumbling their store to find one, you can do it online by checking on different websites. Price is also a fact to consider, its not because that its kind of rare that you have to purchase it even if it cost too much. Try looking for stuffs around the world, again an online shopping website would be a big help for this one. You can have some of those things for less unlike buying it in novelty stores which they charge double or even triple on the said prices. You might want to compare prices before deciding to buy one just to make sure your not being priced to much for such item.

As an amateur for buying gifts, this two factors would be a lot of help. Looking around in a shopping website that has everything on it can be a very good help and it do saves your time as well. Of course you have to exert an effort cause you'll need a good website that has a lot of those things stored on it. Just think it this way, its special because for you its not just a gift that every people can get. Its something for them to remind of what you have been for them. Of course, you would always wanted your friends or relatives to remember you even in just one piece of thing which for them would be forever, right?

Unexpected Contentment

Contentment has never been an exact word for people now a days. Most of the peoples living in today has never been contented for one thing. Its one reason as well why everything changes and things goes in advance because of what people are searching for. Materially, if your gonna look up for this things, I'd bet you wont find it. I can put myself as an example wanting for different things just to satisfy my contentment which on the later part I would be bored with.

Until lately, I found something I never thought I would considered worth coming for in my life. Have you had those experience where everything goes so smooth that you can die right away because of the satisfaction that you got. Or even like have those light feeling, imagining butterflies all over you. But in the mere sense, everything came unexpectedly. Maybe I was looking for it that I wasn't aware of. But whatever I have right now, its something I don't want to lose just in case I'll be reincarnated. I'll prefer not to have life the second time around cause I'm afraid I wont experience this same thing happening to me right now. It's not that I'm to exaggerated with these things, but its the dream for me that just came true and with this, iI' truly contented with what I have right now.

Top 10 Relationship Wreckers

When in a love relationship, most couples would have a love and hate relationship. Most often times if not controlled, will lead to a dysfunctional kind of relationship that sometimes could be very tiring to have every single day. Well I too have realization for this stuffs and considering the fact that it has beguiled most of the people all over the globe. I have read this Top Ten Relationship Wreckers that I found from Cognitive Therapy Associates (CTA) web page which I find it very helpful. You might want to read on this one and reflect maybe one of these are causing you too much burden being together.

Top 10 Relationship Wreckers

1. Neglecting Your Partner (ignoring, workaholism, addictions):

• A primary function of a relationship is to provide companionship and to meet each other’s needs. When other activities, interests or preoccupations interfere with our availability, we can wind up short-changing our partner. This can be thought of as absenteeism or being MIA. Taking an inventory and making adjustments in how we spend our time is the first step in correcting this problem. Treat your partner as the important person they are by spending enough quality time together to satisfy each of your requirements in this area and to maintain your connection.

2. Depriving Your Partner (not being attentive, expressive, affectionate, supportive, caring, loving):

• Being there physically is not enough. We cannot expect our relationship to thrive if we withdraw emotionally for extended periods of time. In order to be fully present, we must be aware of our partner and be willing to show how we feel both verbally and non-verbally. Expressing love though affection and caring behaviors are crucial to keeping a relationship strong and vibrant. Small regular doses of intimacy will usually suffice, and the most important times of day to communicate positively are upon waking, upon reuniting after a long day, and before going to sleep.

3. Dishonesty & Betrayal (infidelity, lying):

• Most people are aware that the foundation of any relationship is T-R-U-S-T. In no relationship is trust more important than in a relationship between mates, except for a parent and dependent child relationship. Cheating and lying breaks down the basis for a relationship, and often results in its demise. A problem of this nature is serious, and resolving it must be a top priority if the relationship is to survive. Couples counseling is highly recommended in order to facilitate the changes that are needed.

4. Attacking Your Partner (blaming, abuse – physical, emotional, sexual):

• Aggressive communication is simply unacceptable, especially if the abuse is getting physical. Physical or sexual abuse are deal-breakers in a marriage, and should prompt a permanent separation. The abusive partner needs to get professional help to learn skills in anger management, in order to gain and consistently demonstrate better control over his or her emotions and behavior. Even if the help is sought and progress is made, the risk of recurrence remains high, so in most cases, the abused partner should not return to the relationship. Returning serves to reinforce the abusive behavior, leading to increased severity and frequency of subsequent abuse. Instead, the abused partner should also seek help, and work through issues that have potential to lead one into another abusive relationship. Verbally blaming, accusing, and insulting your partner are less extreme forms of destructiveness, but are not OK either, and assertiveness training can provide the essential skills for healthy communication.

5. Scapegoating (taking your anger or frustration out on you partner):

• We all know that it’s not right to kick the dog after a hard day at work, so why do it to your partner? Being held responsible for things that are out of our control is the most stressful of conditions, and that is what we do to our partner when we scapegoat them. Rather than hurt the ones you love, do what it takes to meet the real problem head-on, as effectively as you can. If you are unsure of how to address a problem, the strong and mature thing to do is to ask for help and support from trusted sources (i.e., a friend, relative, or therapist).

6. Negativism (nitpicking, nagging, criticizing):

• In order to have a good relationship, the positives must outweigh the negatives by a large percentage. If negativity is creeping into your relationship, it is like water seeping into walls, eventually weakening the structure. People usually feel good around others who are upbeat and positive, as well as those who help them to feel good about themselves. Bringing a negative spirit into your relationship crowds out the positive. However, pushing aside or neglecting to address real problems is not the answer either, and can be just as harmful to relationship health as dwelling on the negative. So pick your battles wisely, strive to communicate effectively, and practice cooperative negotiation.

7. Gossiping (telling family or friends about your problems but not addressing them with your partner):

• That’s right, if you are talking about the problems in your relationship with friends or relatives but not working on improving the situation, that amounts to gossip. Gossip is not a productive way to handle problems, and can result in additional problems. For instance, your partner may feel betrayed that you revealed sensitive material to others that cause him or her to be embarrassed or uncomfortable around them. Also, if you promote a negative side of your partner or your relationship, others may get a distorted view, and changes in their attitudes and behavior may follow. Others may remember your conflicts long after you and your partner have gotten past them. Instead, work on improving your communication skills. Turn toward your partner, not away. If you need help, seek out the assistance of an objective third party such as a therapist who works with couples. When it comes to your needs, stop complaining and start asking!

8. Controlling Your Partner (“my way” or else, perfectionism, trying to change your partner, possessiveness):

• Wanting things to be a certain way and having preferences are completely natural and even healthy. However, when this tendency becomes extreme and starts to encroach on the rights, needs and desires of others, it can cause major havoc. Freedom of will and self-determination are basic needs, and when these are being threatened, negative reactions may include anger, resentment, and/or rebellion. If the need to control is a problem in your relationship, identify the motivations behind it and work towards dealing with those issues rather than acting them out with your partner.

9. Putting Yourself First (self-centeredness, selfishness, entitlement):

• It’s not “all about me,” folks. Letting one’s self interests take priority in an unbalanced way can be toxic to a partnership. The other person usually winds up feeling deprived, resentful, and unimportant. Furthermore, the more self-involved you are, the more you take your relationship for granted, the less you appreciate your partner, and the more alone you actually are. So if your relationship is slanted in this way, you also lose out, because you experience less of the joy that a true connection brings. You and you partner both get more from the relationship through reciprocity in giving and receiving.

10. Putting Yourself Last (self-neglect, passivity, self sacrifice):

• Martyrs are seldom happy. More often, they are angry, bitter, resentful, depressed and burned out. This is not to say that you should not consider others and be thoughtful in meeting their needs. But having a healthy relationship involves factoring your own needs and desires into the equation. You teach people how to treat you, and if you act like a doormat, you can’t completely blame someone if they wipe their feet on you. Learn how to stand up for yourself, practice assertive communication, ask and allow others to meet your needs, and take care of yourself as much as you take care of your loved ones.

I dont care - 2NE1 (English Sub and Reggae Version)

here's the newest release of 2ne1 in their cover album I dont care. its a bit mellow but its very catchy. and i love the reggae version of this one which they did live. and im starting to love their songs as well.

*with english subs*




*live reggae version*

I dont care
lyrics with English Sub
(credits to Whimsical Being for this one)

[CL]
Hey playboy it's about time
and your time is up
I had to do this one for my girls you know?
sometimes you gotta act like you don't care
that's the only way you boys learn

[Minji]
I can't forgive the lipstick mark at the end of your shirt
The cell phone; which is turned off everyday
I don't think it will change oh oh

Ni ootgeeteh mooreun ribsutikeun naneun jordelo yongsomoteh
mehir harueh sooshipbun kkojyuheetneun hendupoon
byunhaji ahneurgotman gatah oh oh

[Dara]
The girlfriends you have, that you say are just friends
Don't think of me the same, I won't let it ride
Do whatever you want, I want to throw away
I did really love you at some point

gujoh chingooraneun soomangaeun yuhjachingoo
narddokgati senggakhajima I won't let it ride
eejeh nimamderohae nan miryuneur borirleh
handdeh jongmar saranghetneundeh

[CL]
Sometimes you get drunk, and call in the early morning 5:30
You say some other girl's name no

gakkumshik sooreh choihe honhuargoroh jigeumeun sebyuk dasosshiban
non ddo darun yuhjaee eerumeur boorlo no

[Bom]
I don't care I want to stop whatever you're doing anywhere
I don't want to have interest anymore just move
Don't cry and hang on to me
Cause I don't care e e e e e e
Cause I don't care e e e e e e

I don't care gumanharle niga ohdiehso mor hadon
eejeh jongmar sangguan ahnharke bikyuhjoorleh
eejeh wah oorgoboorgo mehdarlijima
cause don't care e e e e e e
cause don't care e e e e e e

[Minji]
Cause I don't care e e e e e e
Cause I don't care e e e e e e
Boy I don't care

cause don't care e e e e e e
cause don't care e e e e e e
Boy I don't care

[Minji]
Stealing looks at other girl's legs
I think you're so pathetic
Taking off the couple ring everyday, going on a secret meeting without me knowing
I can't hold it in anymore oh oh oh

Darun yuhjaduree darirul hoomchyuboneun
niga nomo nomo hamshimheh
meheer bbehnohneun kopurling na morleh han sogehting
doeesang motchameurgotgatah oh oh oh

[Dara]
My friends who always say it's not you
You tried to persuade all your wolf like friends
For you, I'm too good, I want to let go with an easy heart
I believed you were my love oh oh

non jordeh ahniraneun soomaneun nayechingoo
non nukdehran chingoodeurggaji dairlyuhtjiman
charali horgaboonhe nohehgeh nan gua boonhe
neh sarangeera midohssneundeh oh oh

[CL]
I called you just in case, because you said you were busy
Of course at the back I hear a girl laugh oh no

Oneurdo babbudago marhaneun no hokshina jonhwahehboatjiman
yukshi dduiehson yuhja euteusoriga deurlyuh oh no

[Bom]
I don't care I want to stop whatever you're doing anywhere
I don't want to have interest anymore just move
Don't cry and hang on to me
Cause I don't care e e e e e e
Cause I don't care e e e e e e

I don't care gumanharle niga ohdiehso mor hadon
eejeh jongmar sangguan ahnharke bikyuhjoorleh
eejeh wah oorgoboorgo mehdarlijima
cause don't care e e e e e e
cause don't care e e e e e e

[Dara]
Cause I don't care e e e e e e
Cause I don't care e e e e e e
Boy I don't care

cause don't care e e e e e e
cause don't care e e e e e e
Boy I don't care

[Minji]
I remember the night I cried because of you boy
My heart has gone easy thinking of you who will regret boy
Losing me is a waste but having me is so dull
You should have done better when I was there why are you hanging on

Nan nodeehmoeh oormyuh jisehdon bameur giokhe boy
do hooheihar nor senggakhani mamee suiohssneh boy
nor nohchigin ahkkabgo jatgiehn shishihajanhni
eeteurddeh jarhaji no wueh eejehwah mehdarlini

[CL]
More than a hundred times I've been fooled with your lies
After today I'm a girl who makes guys cry bad girl
Now I smirk at you without one tear
Inside this lovegame loser
If you kneel, you can catch me
If not, get out of my sight

sokahjoon gojitmarmanhedo soobehkbon
oneur eehooro nan namja oorlineun bad girl
eejen noonmoor hanbangoor obtee nor biootoh
sarangeeran geeim sook loser
moorupkkorhgo jabeur soo itni
ahnim noon ahpehso dangjang kkojyuh

[Bom]
I don't care I want to stop whatever you're doing anywhere
I don't want to have interest anymore just move
Don't cry and hang on to me
cause I don't care e e e e e e
cause I don't care e e e e e e
cause I don't care e e e e e e
cause I don't care e e e e e e
Boy I don't care

I don't care gumanharle niga ohdiehso mor hadon
eejeh jongmar sangguan ahnharke bikyuhjoorleh
eejeh wah oorgoboorgo mehdarlijima
cause I don't care e e e e e e
cause I don't care e e e e e e
cause I don't care e e e e e e
cause I don't care e e e e e e
Boy I don't care

Bring it on: Fight to the Finish

due to my laziness of doing nothing, i opted to watch movie online and luckily was able to check and watched the latest franchise movie of "Bring it on: Fight to the Finish. i know this movie had gone way up and far by its pilot movie "Bring it on". the movie stars Christina Millan which stars as the main character in the story being a Cheer Leader then had to move up to a different state because of her mom. the plot was kinda ripped up from "Bring it On: All or Nothing", but it introduced a different attitude and sense in the movie. it has the sensation of the first and second movie of Bring it on (Bring it on, Bring it Again) and as well as the fire of rivalry on the 3rd franchise which is Bring it on: All or Nothing. The movie is so good, routine wise its different. The story itself is catchy and catches heart of the viewer. And there are a lot of scenes in this movie you'll enjoy and laugh cause it doesn't look cheesy as what you think. And mind you, its a clean movie which lessens the green part of some Bring it on franchise movies. Though its dismaying that it was not launched on the big screen, i'm still grateful i was able to watch the movie. you can search for it on the Internet for movie streams of it. Or if your a collector of the Bring it on franchise, i would suggest you go get the dvd copy of this one and trust me, its worth watching. Here's some movie teasers for you to check this movie out.

Sugababes - About you Know (Acoustic Version)

i've always been a fan of this group. i can describe their music as fast beat but sentimental at the same time. the kind of music that doesn't show sad music as sad instead they put emotions making it a bit faster without losing the essence and message of the song. the groups voice are incredible and so real. though they are not that known but definitely they are one of the best female band group that existed. and this song goes to My Alles as well. =)

A Verdict to Change

"Hide our ignorance as we will, an evening of wine soon reveals it."
*Heraclitus*

they say change is constant, and its the only thing that moves forward in the world. i would say yes they could be right. but haven't we thought of this question about the changes that's happening, *did they change?*, *for what reason?*, *whats behind it?* and most of all is *until when?*. there has been a lot of things contradicting change and its existence, and i think i too would be one of those people.

i think i don't believe in changes anymore, why? remember the cliche, that a diamond submerged in mud will still be a diamond? so where is changes in that? applying to a person attitude and personality, would it also be significant? you thought of changing for the better, well there was a change, for sometime but you can never deny the fact that it'll still come back and your still gonna be the same person who you are.

for changes, will it be forever, promises are not even made forever, so how can you attest that changes are there. probably changes are constant its because changes do always happen, changing from bad to good going back to bad. its the irony that i find in this word, wondering how this word was created without thinking and sense. and i think that's something i have to realize for as well that bothers me a lot.

now i'm thinking of trust and its effect to me. can i still be the same person whom expected to be? i don't find happiness actually with the changes that i am doing with myself, it feels like not me. but to make people happy, you have to. but isn't lovers should understand both their differences and not their similarities? they could have been in love with such person because of their difference but trying to change because of what they think should be is a different thing. i am not an expert of this or that but i think i cant make it anymore. it's like im trying to be something im not which i said i would not do before. i think im being a hyprocrite of my own statement and stupid of what im doing. oh please, it feels like hell to me.

The Story of the Two Nuns

a story that was shared in our team while we were enjoying our break time. i thought of sharing it to as well.


There were two nuns. One of them was known as Sister Mathematical (SM), and the other one was known as Sister Logical (SL). It is getting dark and they are still far away from the convent.

SM: Have you noticed that a man has been following us for
the past thirty-eight and a half minutes? I wonder what he wants.

SL: It's logical. He wants to rape us.

SM: Oh, no! At this rate he will reach us in 15 minutes
at the most! What can we do?

SL: The only logical thing to do of course is to walk faster.

SM: It's not working.

SL: Of course it's not working. The man did the only
logical thing. He started to walk faster, too.

SM: So, what shall we do? At this rate he will reach us in one minute.

SL: The only logical thing we can do is split. You go that way and I'll go this way. He cannot follow us both.

So the man decided to follow Sister Logical. Sister Mathematical arrives at the convent and is worried about what has happened to Sister Logical. Then Sister Logical arrives.

SM: Sister Logical! Thank God you are here!
Tell me what happened!

SL: The only logical thing happened. The man couldn't follow us both, so he followed me.

SM: Yes, yes! But what happened then?

SL: The only logical thing happened. I started to run
as fast as I could and he started to run as fast as he could.

SM : And?

SL : The only logical thing happened. He reached me.

SM : Oh, dear! What did you do?

SL : The only logical thing to do. I lifted my dress up.

SM : Oh, Sister! What did the man do?

SL: The only logical thing to do. He pulled down his pants.

SM: Oh, no! What happened then?

SL: Isn't it logical, Sister? A nun with her dress up can run faster than a man with his pants down.


...and for those of you who thought it would be dirty, Say two Hail Marys!

A Positive Approach, A New Wave

its a new month, and next week will be a new week for everyone. things are not happening the way its planned but its good that everybody has its own plan. i do have a lot of things in my mind that wants to be fulfilled for this month so i believe this will be a busy month for me. it seems like the month which should be lucky for me didn't turn out to be that way, instead it bombed me with a lot of trials, problems and a lot of stuffs. well i know it'll make me ready for whatever will be happening for the this new month. moving forward and looking for a bright day ahead.

Some Attack

jealousy has never been my kind of bread. its not my attitude to be envious of what other has and i don't have. it has always been my perception no to envy others what they have because everything has a reason of why. but lately, things are changing the way i'm not planning it. i always tell myself its just the initial feeling of it but later it'll brush off, but i don't think things are going fine as the way i perceived them. life is complicated and i think its getting more on my end. i hate this kind of feeling when i had already overcome this before. its not just the first time but i know its not this worse that i had to settle and be quiet thinking of worse scenarios i could ever think of. probably i'm jus imaginative, or tired. stress out, so i think need to push back.