A Word from Above

It really feels so great to get commendations from the people above the organization. Because I am on cloud 9, I cant help myself to share it. Oh and by the way, this is not just for mine alone but for all the Team Leads who are part of our cluster. So here goes:

this was the word we got from our Site Director:

All,

I can’t stress enough how proud I am of everything you’re doing.

You’ve taken a very large program that has ramped very quickly and brought it to the top of the standings. You’ve done this despite the extra one year of tenure in Manila and that in itself speaks volumes to what you’re doing on a day to day basis. For that I thank you.

It’s each of you driving your teams to perform that has lead us to where we are today. You being the leaders you are and figuring out what motivates your agents to succeed has lead us to where we are today. You suffering through the supervisor calls, answering the endless questions and doing the “just one more thing to look after” that we push you to do has lead us to where we are today.

You’ve each taken a group of individuals, formed them into a team and lead them to the success that we’re all enjoying today and also for that I thank you.

Continue doing what you’re doing everyday and know that not only is it making a difference in the lives of your team members it’s also being noticed by a lot of people at all levels of the organization.

Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help you to continue your success.

And a simple word of thanks from our Business Manager:

Team,

Here is stack ranking for May MTD. I really appreciate everything that you put out there to make this happen. We have achieved our goal for this month ending # 1 again (back to back) for OPI ranking across all sites. And not only that, Bacolod site ended # 1 across all 3 sites, yet again. This says a lot of how committed you all are in getting things done and ensuring that you are always on top of everything. Please pass on my thanks to your agents. We will not be where we are if not for them. They really made us look good here.

... now who says you wont feel better after reading this one. It pays off all the hardwork and time.

A lie and a feeling better

its going to be mother's day again and again this is the 23rd year that i haven't met my mom. sometimes i really wish i met her so at least i would have someone to listen to my foolish ideas. in the movies or tv shows that i watch, they're always a scene where parents importance are shown. that i usually envy a lot or most often times pricks my heart for unknown reason. well who should i blame then especially if you don't know any of the story.

i always think i am lucky and somewhat blessed with what i have experienced in my life. should i feel that way? or maybe because i am protecting the reality of what had happened to me. i am liar, but maybe because i know this makes the world go round. and it does make me feel better often times.

until when should i feel this way or does thing stays forever. 23 years of awaiting for truth is already a glimpse of forever for me. but why do i hope for a time that i could meet her, know her at be with her. maybe those are just one of those lies that i always create to make me feel better?

yes, to make me feel better.

Woah

i just got caught sleeping after the longest time of all my work. i was panting and i dont even know what to say so i just blurt out that i was just taking my break. well in one point it was an appropriate excuse but it still not allowed though in anyway. but is that why sleeping quarters was made.

stupid me, isn't it? well i would probably be sleeping much when i get home. 30 minutes and i am way gone out from the office.

Responsibility and Priority

when i was a kid, i usually don't care of what is happening around me. that's normal i think since the things you have on mind is just fun and fun and fun and fun. then i grew up but i was still thinking of myself and never cared much of the things that are happening around me. then i got this job, that's when i got instantenous shock with what i had went through. when i was working before, all i could see was just the perks and its prestige. but what's inside the box is something more than what it covers them.

then here i am, owning a responbisility which i thought i am not capable of.

realization comes at the end, but i am a bit challenged and overwhelmed.

Undecided but had Decided

sometimes in life, we get to make decisions that we don't really wanted but we have to. that dilemma has been or are most likely had been experienced by a lot of people. knowing at the end of the day, its still their head that has been crushed to. sometimes you want it to end, but here you are stuck in the middle and you don't know how to end it. people would say a lot of things of how they understand you, the question is do they really understand you?

we wish. we hope. we think. ending is the best way.

but is it really the best way? or is it just stupidity?

Some break

i just so love a break. we just went on a planned team building which of course was sponsored by US (because of our so poor company). after all that busy stuff that i just had, i was able to go to break and it is really is very very very refreshing. i want to go on a more of it. eitherways, i just want to blogged in since i wasn't able to blog much. and guess what, i am planning to open another blog which highlights my life. wee, i am so excited with it. anyways, got to go.

Impecable Non-sense

I miss the blogging days. I wish I wasn't so busy that I have time to do drop by in a shop. But nevertheless I am looking forward to have my own PC assembled by one of my own friend. Cool, isn't it? Now I don't have to run a lot of errands just to jot down anything that flickers my mind.

Anyways got to go. Got some game to crash. xD

The End

So busy with the schedule that I had lately. Thank goodness everything is back to normal now and I'm back blogging again. I miss blogging a lot. Gotta go home to take arest and start blogging tomorrow. (I'm not gonna sleep yet actually cause I will still be watching Gossip Girl which is pretty addictive)

Life to Move on

What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new. Right now. - Anonymous

A person’s past is an overall transformer of one person, personification and character. This greatly influences one person thinking and outlook in life. A person is like a river that shines clearly in the surface but deep within is enveloped with unseen past and aspiration. These things are usually comprised of thing that could be hard to forget, blissful or regretful.

Hath then I realize that past vindicated life should not jeopardize people around you. You can be as strict you are since your parents were strict before but make sure you can justify it at a cause. You can be as bitter because of your life’s unfortunate events before, but do not be superior that you are already causing unnerving doubt to everybody’s life around you.

They don’t care who you are before, what they care is who you are today. People won’t misjudge your action if you won’t let your bitter past interfere of who you are today. Remember, life is a choice but don’t forget that you can’t control everything that will happen. What you can do is accept it with wide arms open and make use of your experience before for the better.

Mangudadadatu vs Ampatuan in Davao Mall

I heard about the news the night after the incident from one of  my friend when we were exchanging text. They are prolific threat to the city that I grew up with. Destroying every known peace in the city and the outrage that they are exhibiting is quite pathetic. Wish all of them would just mysteriously disappear to end all things up. They're not even in their own city to bring fear and rage. They should be taught with a very good lesson that they won't forget. Got the news from Yahoo.com.

Mangudadatu escort kills 'Ampatuan hitman' in Davao Mall

(Updated 9:51 p.m.) A member of the the powerful Ampatuan clan allegedly attacked Maguindanao gubernatorial bet Esmael "Toto" Mangudadatu in a Davao City mall on Thursday evening, but ended up being shot dead himself by a Mangudadatu bodyguard.

Mangudadatu told GMANews.TV in a phone interview that he was at the Gaisano Grand Citimall Ilustre in Davao City when a man assaulted him.

"Kasama ko ang anak ko. Namimili kami ng damit para sa February 14 (I was with my children, buying clothes for February 14 when the incident happened)," he said.

Authorities identified Mangudadatu's alleged attacker as Tamano Camalindan a.k.a. Tamano Mamalapat, a resident of Shariff Aguak, Maguindanao, and reportedly with a standing warrant of arrest against him.

Mamalapat is also reportedly a nephew of suspended Maguindanao Governor Andal Ampatuan Sr, who is among the 197 people charged with murder in connection with the November 23 massacre.

Mangudadatu claimed that Mamalapat was the clan patriarch's "hitman."

According to Mangudadatu, his two bodyguards protected him, with one of them shooting Mamalapat. "Nag-agawan sila ng baril ng bodyguard ko (One of my bodyguards and the suspect fought for the gun)," he said.

In a phone interview with GMANews.TV, Davao City police said they received a report about the shooting incident at around 7 p.m.

Responding police arrived at the site together with Davao City mayor Rodrigo Duterte, radio dzMM reported, and are still investigating the incident as of posting time.—Andreo Calonzo/JV, GMANews.TV

Everyday Dilemna

Ever had the day waking up in the same monotonous day where things feel like a routine from yesterday? That the same feeling when you we’re a student when you need to go to school every single day. You’re trying to motivate your self but it seems like motivation is getting tired of helping you out. It feels like the sun has stopped shining to a field filled that used to be so excited in seeing the world. Lately, I have been simply having this dilemma. I’m burned out. Technically no, emotionally I think so. Something I use to have before which I was able to fight back. Soon, I’ll get tired of this but I am afraid what I am going to do next. It feels like I already did everything and experienced everything that a person had to feel from childhood to adulthood making me feel tired in every day walks of life. Just like movies that are shown today, all recycled and easy to predict. Maybe I’m just getting old or maybe I’m just getting a little bit tired of my life. I think I'm just missing everybody, the life I use to have with my friends. They usually give me a different perspective in life. Something that motivates me from a time.

Just want to let you know guys that I'm all missing you. It's hard living without you guys. I think I just jumped in a pool too deep and was not thinking of it.

Faces of a Liar

Lies has been a part of a human life. Checking back on history, Adam was also the first person who lied and theoritically because of that, was thrown out from the Garden of Eden. This has passed through all the generations and somewhat spread through to everybody. Everybody has their own reasons for being a liar. Some good, some bad and some are even saying it not to hurt anybody. But is it a good thing? Is it justifiable? Is it reasonable? Or is it because everybody are afraid to tell the truth and the fact that lies on it. Sooner or later liars get stomped on because the truth will out whether it is tomorrow or next year or the next decade. Each lie leaves a trail. And the most unfortunate thing of all is that lies tend to have infinite lives!

Liars have to lead a difficult, if not impossible, life. They merely live in a fantasy. They hide their sins and their transgressions in a cloud and web of lies. They have to remember each and every detail about their lies, to whom they told them and why they told them. They spend their lives looking over their shoulders to see if any of the lies are catching up with them. They are always on the run; trying to outrun their lies! A liar leads a most miserable and horrible life.

Reasons why they are lying? Well it could be because (1) a liar doesn't like himself/herself as a person, (2) they consider their accomplishments inadequate, (3) they cannot stomach or accept the truth about whatever (4) they are afraid of the truth and (5) they cannot stomach the consequences of the truth. I could go on but you get the point. I read on to this article made by Pierre A. Rinfret and found some profiling of the liars which might help us categorized some of the people we know or had jumped in to us with a lie.

Perpetual Liar

This are the most difficult liar that you will encounter. This liar is one of those people who had great brain, and basing on an IQ tests are incredibly Genius. These people lies about anything. Important or unimportant, basically everything. Its like they had used to it and had lived with it. You could not believe anything at all of what he said. If he said that he called you X times in a day (after you had not talked to him in months) you knew he never made a single call at all.

Dangerous Liar

Dangerous liar (they are, of course, all dangerous) is the one that lies only about major or important facts. This is the kind of person that lies about his education, his studies, his degrees, his background, his family, his prior jobs, his war (or military) experiences, facts of all kinds, if he is in an argument and whatever suits him at the moment.

Political Liar

The political liar is legend. Political liars do not care one iota, one bit, one scintilla about the truth or the actual facts. They argue strictly on the basis of their emotions and their concept of what is "right" and what is "justice." We have all met them. They are the worst kind and it is hopeless to argue or debate them because they "know" and they lie and make up facts to suit whatever argument. The worst are of course, the media who lie and cheat to the ultimate and they have zero conscience and less responsibility. All they care about is winning no matter how they win.It is NOT how the game is played which to them is idealistic nonsense. All they care about is WINNING, no matter how, including lying and cheating to the extreme. Lying and cheating are pretty much the same thing, aren't they?

Social Engineering Liar

The social engineering liar is among the most dangerous because they want to change the social order according to their vision of what it should be. They lie about anything and everything and the worst of all is that they are self righteous about their lying. When they can't win a social argument with facts they resort to emotionalism (another form of lying). And when the emotionalism doesn't work they lie to high heaven in whatever mode suits them; just as long as they win their argument! My entire experience with these kind of self-righteous, guilt prone individuals is that they lie and lie some more.They know they are lying but they don't care!

Community Liar

The most incredible of all is the Community Liar. This is where a mass of people agree silently and without any overt or noticeable agreement that they are going to lie en masse! This also comes under the title of "lying to oneself".

Living and Working

Lately, I was so busy with everything happening to me. I have been missing my favorite series or movie, have not updated my blog and even updating myself to music. I have been rolling myself round and round to know more with my work and getting the hang of it. I know it would sound burning on my end but thats how I usually master myself to be good with something which later on I would get tired with. I've been enjoying much here the business that my work has, the occupancy of myself on my work. I've been exposing myself much on this work that much that when I go home, the only thing I could do there is sleep. I'm thinking about having something to destress out so that is why I am moving to my colleauge's house and live there cause probably that would help. Either ways, I am enjoying my stay here though I know that description is just blunt. Oh well, everybody has to grow.

The 3 Wives

There was a rich merchant who had 4 wives. He loved the 4th wife the most and adorned her with rich robes and treated her to delicacies. He took great care of her and gave her nothing but the best.

He also loved the 3rd wife very much. He's very proud of her and always wanted to show off her to his friends. However, the merchant is always in great fear that she might run away with some other men.

He too, loved his 2nd wife. She is a very considerate person, always patient and in fact is the merchant's confidante. Whenever the merchant faced some problems, he always turned to his 2nd wife and she would always help him out and tide him through difficult times.

Now, the merchant's 1st wife is a very loyal partner and has made great contributions in maintaining his wealth and business as well as taking care of the household. However, the merchant did not love the first wife and although she loved him deeply, he hardly took notice of her.

One day, the merchant fell ill. Before long, he knew that he was going to die soon. He thought of his luxurious life and told himself, "Now I have 4 wives with me. But when I die, I'll be alone. How lonely I'll be!"

Thus, he asked the 4th wife, "I loved you most, endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No way!" replied the 4th wife and she walked away without another word.

The answer cut like a sharp knife right into the merchant's heart. The sad merchant then asked the 3rd wife, "I have loved you so much for all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No!" replied the 3rd wife. "Life is so good over here! I'm going to remarry when you die!" The merchant's heart sank and turned cold.

He then asked the 2nd wife, "I always turned to you for help and you've always helped me out. Now I need your help again. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company?" "I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!" replied the 2nd wife. "At the very most, I can only send you to your grave." The answer came like a bolt of thunder and the merchant was devastated.

Then a voice called out : "I'll leave with you. I'll follow you no matter where you go." The merchant looked up and there was his first wife. She was so skinny, almost like she suffered from malnutrition. Greatly grieved, the merchant said, "I should have taken much better care of you while I could have !"

Conclusion:

Actually, we all have 4 wives in our lives:

• a. The 4th wife is our body. No matter how much time and effort we lavish in making it look good, it'll leave us when we die.
• b. Our 3rd wife ? Our possessions, status and wealth. When we die, they all go to others.
• c. The 2nd wife is our family and friends. No matter how close they had been there for us when we're alive, the furthest they can stay by us is up to the grave.
• d. The 1st wife is in fact our soul, often neglected in our pursuit of material, wealth and sensual pleasure.

I'm not being a preacher here but reality is, this is only thing that follows us wherever we go. Perhaps it's a good idea to cultivate and strengthen it now rather than to wait until we're on our deathbed to lament.

Me, Myself and I

Everything has its own ways of unveiling. Some heroic, some catastrophic or sometimes its even whimsical. You'll never know whats in it for you unless you tried going to one of those doors, opening it and realizing what it has done. Regrets can start building up, but if your gonna be positive enough, your going to see the other picture of the decision that you had made. Lately, everything that I went through has not been easy. Well it never did since I woke up from reality, but I think I am just starting to enjoy everything that I'm not. It's not with the spot light , nor the amazing stuffs that I could actually do. But its the thought that your able to reach everything you wanted to do, with no one telling or hindering you to do so. And by those things, you motivate everything around you, make enemies for those who envy you and being able to hit back anyone that you wanted to. I know freedom had been always been mine, but freedom I had experience lately was compelling and such a wonderful feeling. I know everything wont last, I'm writing this down to remind me of this day I realized that I am happy being alone, with nothing to think on. Just me, myself and I.

Reality Chase

Sometimes I thought of life is a big lie for me. Not everything in this world had been real for me I think, aside from my friends. Even my emotions, I usually fake it out, like everything is nuisance. I don't even know how to decipher reality and dream anymore. Sometimes I would want to wish dream to last more than it should, but when hit back by reality, it disappears. Dream for me is like smoke that disappears upon the strong blow of the wind. But I do have my plans to build on, some expectation that I wanted to meet and some achievement that I have to achieved. Its just the fact that, I don't know where to place it within me. They said it will be good for reality, but it feels better for me when I place it on my dreams. Now I'm confuse as well if my existence is real.

City of Smiles: A Prelude

Its my first day today after the never ending journey of me going to the city of smile. I'm really wondering why they are called the city of smiles but the people here are really approachable though the mask are scaring me in someways. After all the mishaps that I had went through in going to this city, including the ship that had been super delay and not-so-good-accomodation and HAD TECHNICAL PROBLEMS WHICH I THOUGH ITS GONNA SINK. Sorry but I can't help my hysterical madness to blurt out because of what happened during my journey to this city which already had come to an end and I had been lucky enough to have everything arranged before the end of the day today. It was stressful, tiring and most of all boring staying on the ship with the intermittent signal of mobile phone carriers, what more could you ask for. But at least I was able to see some boring movies that I never dared to watch in Davao nor buff it on the internet.

So here I am, starting on this journey. Comparison, well people in Davao and Bacolod for me are alike. The place is like Gen. Santos City but a lot more progressive than that city so it could still be considered in Davao. Jeeps dont have name tags unlike in Davao City and you only need to pay 7 pesos where ever you go around the city. Ha ha! Now thats convenient. Food, cheaper but almost thesame. SM City mall, way better and a lot more people compared in Davao and they have this over pass that are only exclusive for SM which is cool to look at. And mind you, they have more than a couple of malls here so its a place I think I'll be hanging out on boredom. And also, this is the only city I think that they will be the one to provide you Internet stubs good for a couple of minutes or hours, that means no open time. Ha ha. So much for that, I'm going to sleep now. I call this a day.

Because of You - Boyce Avenue

There are a lot of things that already had threatened this mutual feelings we've been sharing. In different ways it had been fun but hurting at the same time. knowing that there are a lot of factors that are not enjoyable but the thought is that it just wont stop and we keep on coming back for more. As they say, people get idiots for some affection.

Because of You
*Boyce Avenue*

Want to but I can't help it
I love the way it feels
Just got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it
I want it when I don't
Tell myself I'll stop every day
Knowing that I won’t

I got a problem and I... (Don't know what to do about it)
Even if I did I don't know if I would quit but I doubt it
I'm taken by the thought of it...

And I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction
I'm so strung out on you
I can barely move
But I like it

And it's all because of you (3x)
And it's all because...
Never get enough
She's the sweetest drug

Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done
Only concern is the next time
I'm gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from
‘Cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession
Won’t let me leave

I got a problem and I... (Don't know what to do about it)
Even if I did I don't know if I would quit but I doubt it
I'm taken by the thought of it...

And I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction
I'm so strung out on you
I can barely move
But I like it

And it's all because of you 3x
And it's all because...
Never get enough
She's the sweetest drug

Ain't no doubt
So strung out (2x)
Over you, over you, over you

Because of you
And it's all because of you
Never get enough
She's the sweetest drug
She's the sweetest drug

Opportunity and Risk

"Opportunity knocks once..."

.. as what they say. But what if opportunity comes in a different forms making you leave important things in your life? Would you grab it or not? I'm on to that situation right now, realizing that I am somewhat leaving not just one, but almost everything that i grew up with, lived with and made plans with. I have to leave my friends, my city, my dreams and even some of my plans with the special person I have. What I don't get is, my friends are fine with it but not with him. Of course regression and doubts are with my friends, telling me if I am sure of it or not. But reflecting back on my plans with this one, I find it an opportunity to have a clean exit of my not so good life. I think really need to leave out my comfort zone and start living life the way everyone is living it. It's just sometimes hard to think that the people whom your expecting to support you, is even not there to support you. Now it's confusing me. Talking about meeting new horizons.

Life After the Consequence

Sleepless times is really present. Sometimes its really hard to break a habit especially if you get used and loved it. I really had set my minds that nothing is happening but its hard faking it. You roll over to your bed, left and right thinking what to do and how to evade those thoughtful memories, but whatever you do its still lingering. Just hate the thought about it. But nevertheless, everything has its own ending, just had to have a positive thought. I always have have it, and I always believe myself to be always optimistic. I'm emotionally strong, I always can fake everything out. Faking things out has its own hard times, but I had get used to it. I just hate the thought that I have to do again, after all those times. But at least I know, the problem was not mine. Misunderstanding, mistrust and wrong thinking has been all the root of this mishap. Moving forward, as what our previous supervisor use to say, life has to get going.

**Edit: Too glad it already ended... =)